Kent felt bound to fall in with Winifred's friendly fable, although his
honesty shrank a little from accepting what was not its due.
“There is always something sad in leave-taking,” said Clytie.
The remark was trite and commonplace; but so is a kiss or a grasp of the
hand or the words “Good-bye, dear,” themselves. The original generally
brings more titillation than comfort.
“This leave-taking is sadder than most--to me,” said Kent.
“And to me too,” said Clytie. “It marks the end of the old life--a very
pleasant one. Kent,” she went on after a short reflective pause, “I
want to tell you something: I reproached you a little in my heart--last
month. I don't now. I haven't the right. Winifred said she had let you
know of my engagement. If our parting had not come from you, it would
have come now from me.”
“I see now; it was bound to come sooner or later,” replied Kent, much
moved. “Oh, my God! what puppets we are. But I wish you happiness,
from my heart, in your new life. You will always be to me the one woman
whom”--he was going to add, “I could love,” but he checked himself and
quickly substituted, “who has taught me what there is in women.”
“Ah, my dear Kent,” returned Clytie with a touch of her brightness and
charm, “there will be someone nicer than I who will teach you better.
You, too, must have happiness, you know. You will marry soon----”
“I marry!” cried Kent, wheeling round to face her. “How can you say
that!”
They looked at one another, each misunderstanding. He was wounded at
her treating his love as a thing of no account. She was puzzled at his
implied contradiction of her theory.
“I thought I had discovered the reason for your wishing to break off our
intimacy--but I find I was wrong.”
“I don't understand,” said Kent, agitated. “I acted foolishly, very
foolishly and rudely. Yet I only did it to save you pain. To break with
you cost me the dearest thing I had in the world. Surely you must be
aware of that.”
“You did not break it because you suddenly--during my absence--wished to
form other ties?”
A light broke upon Kent, like a flash of lightning over a desolate
wilderness. All of this heart-burning, then, was for nothing. She had
never suspected that he loved her. A sense of the futility of things
crushed him for a moment.
“I am not a man to fall in love readily,” he replied in a low voice.
“Then,” said Clytie earnestly, “I am at fault. Why did you not answer
my letter? Why did you shun me? Why were you so constrained when we met?
Why did you tear yourself out of my daily life?”