“Oh, I may grow very, very wicked and selfish one of these days, and not
care for simple things any longer; and then you might be hurt, and you
would know how unworthy I was that you should care for me, and you would
shrink from me.”
“Oh, Clytie, darling!” cried Winifred, throwing her arms about her neck,
“how can you say such things?”
“It is silly, I know,” said Clytie; “but I sometimes feel that I might
do something very wicked without much compunction before I die.”
“But you are going to lead a splendid, beautiful life!” said Winnie.
“You will live in a great house, and have at your command the most
brilliant society in London, all the clever, artistic people--just what
you like. And you won't have to paint for orders, so you need never have
to cramp your genius, dear. Oh, Clytie, you will simply be overflowing
with happiness all your life long.” Clytie sighed. The independence of
her half-Bohemian life was very dear to her. This was the last night
on which, if it so pleased her, she could go forth into the streets,
uncontrolled, whither she would. Henceforward her actions would have to
be referred to an authority. To-morrow she would even change her
name; be transformed from the Clytie Davenant whom she knew into Mrs.
Hammerdyke, a vague, mysterious entity, with whose nature she was
unfamiliar. No matter how glorious the future, there is always some
regret in leaving forever a past phase of life:
At leaving even the most unpleasant people And places, one keeps
looking at the steeple.
But this was a pleasant place Clytie was about to quit, and she looked
back upon its associations with a sigh.
In the morning a commissionnaire sent by Thornton came and fetched away
her trunks, for the newly married pair were to start for the Continent
immediately after the ceremony. When these were despatched Clytie stood
for a moment before her glass, adjusted the clasp of her cape and the
set of her broad gray beaver hat, and turning to Winifred, said quietly:
“Let us go, dear.”