“You'll change when we get back and become a shining light in the
Primrose League.”
She was too depressed by the whole of the foregoing conversation to
pursue the subject any further. Thornton started the lighter topic of
personal criticism of their new acquaintances in Paris, and rattled on
in great spirits. He had forgotten entirely the argument that Clytie's
somewhat unconventional action had occasioned, and was as boyishly gay
as ever. But men forget things much more easily than women, especially
when they have no object in remembering, nor any reminiscent twinge of
susceptibility.
That evening Clytie spent alone. Thornton was dining at the Café des
Ambassadeurs with some men from the Embassy. He had kissed her before
he started, called himself a selfish brute for condemning her to a dull
evening, and went away humming a café-concert air. She did not mind his
leaving her, took it now as a matter of course that each should be to
a certain extent independent of the other; for the glamour of the
south had departed, and the practicalities of life had begun to assert
themselves. But it was the first wretched evening of her married life.
She would have liked to cry, but as she was not of those who cry easily,
she sat with eyes all the more painful for being strained and tearless.
She had received a great shock. Ever since she had rebelled against
the Durdleham formula that men were to descend from their intellectual
sublimity when they spoke to women, lest like Semele the latter should
be consumed in the Jovian blaze, she had been accustomed to meet men
freely on an intellectual level. To find herself in a society where this
particular formula was unknown had been one of the earliest joys of her
emancipated life. She had very little vanity in the matter of her own
attainments, but she took it for granted that her associates should
recognise in her a woman of ordinary culture, capable of forming
rational opinions. Her intelligence was keen, her judgment fine. She
had read, thought, observed. Her art was to a certain extent a matter
of intellect as well as of instinctive feeling, and in this respect had
been stimulated by her intercourse with Kent. In the glow of her young,
ardent nature she had committed many extravagances, but they all had
borne the indubitable stamp of a mind strenuous in its endeavours. None
but fools had ever thought of condescending to Clytie because she was a
woman.