But Clytie's heart turned from him and she passed a wretched day--all
the more trying as she felt in honour bound to sing antistrophe of
praise of Thornton to the strophe of Mrs. Farquharson, with whom she was
lunching.
In the evening they were going out together. He came home late from
Westminster, dressed hurriedly, and went down to the drawing-room, where
Clytie was waiting. She was wearing a low-cut dress. Her arms were bare.
A tiny diamond clasp to a thin gold chain flashed on her bosom.
“By Jove! You're looking lovelier than ever!” he cried. “Come, let me
kiss you.”
He drew her to him, kissed the upper part of her arm, and then her lips.
But she made no response. She shrank, and this time he noted it. His arm
still round her waist, he held back his head and looked at her.
“Clytie!”
He spoke with loverlike reproach, and kissed her again, and again she
shrank. And then he cast her aside roughly, and stamped his foot.
“Damn it! Clytie,” he exclaimed, showing his teeth, “you are a perfect
icicle!”
Clytie made no reply, but turned to the window and buttoned her glove.
Thornton rang the bell violently, and when the footman appeared asked
him why the devil the carriage had not come round. Then he flung himself
into a chair and turned over a book. And thus they remained without
speaking until the brougham was announced. On their way to their
dinner-party they did not speak. He was in a fit of furious sulks, and
Clytie's heart was too heavy. Afterwards he went off to his club and she
drove home by herself.
And this at the end of only four months' wedded life. What would it be
at the end of four years, fourteen? Clytie strove for a little to blame
herself for supersensitiveness, egotism, coldness. But her self rose in
arms against this charge. For, like the unfolding of a horrible story,
the nature of Thornton's love for her, the nature of the place she
really occupied in his estimation, gradually broke upon her. The meaning
of light remarks, trivial jests, careless actions; the meaning of
caresses now half contemptuous, now passionate--all came to her in full
light, in all their crudity, out of the gray darkness in which she had
instinctively kept it hidden from herself. She stared at it--not in
ignorant surmise as she had done in Paris, but with a ghastly sickening
of soul.
Oh, the degradation of it! What was she to her husband but a possession,
a toy, a woman, to suffer his caresses when it so pleased him to bestow
them, a mistress whom he had taken it into his head to bind legally to
himself, so that she might serve certain purposes of his in society?
What little better was she to him than the women whom men buy,--Loulou
Mendès, for instance,--save that he reckoned,--he had told her so,--on
her fidelity to him? Things she had tried to ascribe to the careless
familiarity of love blazed insultingly before her, scorching her, making
her writhe in her abasement.