Clytie read the letter over several times. At first the tears came into
her eyes and a lump rose in her throat. This simple, unrequiring love
soothed her and smote her at once. The largeness and tenderness of the
man's nature came to her almost as a revelation. What was there in her
worthy of this sacrifice? How could she tell him, she thought in her
broken pride, that she had failed miserably, wretchedly, that she had
forsaken the higher for the lower, that this selfless love of his was as
far above the sudden intoxication that had degraded her as the spirit is
above the flesh? She had thrown away the best, like the shepherd in
the German legend, who, in the sensuous heart-leap at the sight of the
glittering treasure, disregarded the voice, “Forget not the best,” and
dropped and trampled underfoot the little blue flower that opened the
enchanted hillside. How could she tell him that?
Then, too, the note of unconscious irony in his letter jarred through
her painfully. “Her present happiness!”
“Oh, my God!” she cried at last. “If he only knew how much need I have
of happiness!”
And then the strength that had kept the tears back for all these latter
months of weariness and disillusion suddenly forsook her, and turning as
she sat, she threw herself on the bed in a great agony of sobbing.
A little later she wrote Kent the following reply:
My Dear Friend Kent:
I am not worthy of such devotion. I can only wonder at it and accept
it humbly and gratefully. Words like these of yours I never could
misunderstand, Kent. If it is a pleasure to you to see me, you need not
shun me any more. Clytie.
Kent went into the studio on Monday to tell Winifred of the meeting; on
Tuesday, with a vague hope of seeing Clytie; on Wednesday, when Winifred
herself expected her, but she did not come. On Thursday, however, he
heard her voice from outside the studio door, and his heart gave a great
throb. He entered and found himself once more in her presence. Neither
spoke of the letters that had passed between them, but the faintest
pressure of the hand and a glance from her eyes told him that she
understood.