She would go forthwith to her old rooms in the King's Road, which she
knew to be vacant. There she would live again as Clytie Davenant,
and shut out of her memory the nightmare of the past months. The plan
conceived, she hurried to put it into execution. She would have liked to
open the street door there and then, to cross its threshold for the last
time. But the practical side of life asserts itself in the midst of the
intensest emotions. She would have to pack her boxes, select what
things she would take with her. The aid, too, of the servants would be
necessary. After a swift look at the glass she composed her features,
summoned her maid, gave her orders in a calm, equable voice, as if she
were going on an ordinary visit in the country.
While the servants packed the articles she designated, she went down to
the studio in order to collect a few of the portable objects that were
dear to her: Rupert Kent's etching, the Jacquemart that Kent had given
her, a book or two, a favourite box of oil-tubes. All the rest she would
leave behind, together with everything that Thornton had ever given her.
The maid, an excellently trained servant, packed quickly, but to Clytie
she seemed unutterably slow. It was an effort of control to refrain
from urging the girl on, from snatching the articles from her hands
and stowing them away anyhow, haphazard. Every moment that she lingered
seemed an eternity of degradation. In after days she wondered that she
had never reflected how far Thornton's possible presence in the house
might have affected the ease of her escape. As it happened, he had flung
out of doors as soon as he had left her stricken upon the floor; but
she, in the fixity of her idea, never concerned herself as to his
whereabouts.
At last, when the boxes were packed and locked, the maid, dangling the
keys in her hand, asked Clytie when she should order the brougham.
“I shall go in a four-wheeled cab with the luggage,” said Clytie.
“Go and order one round at once.”
The maid retired wonderingly, and Clytie was left alone. She put on her
bonnet and sat down on the edge of the bed to draw on her gloves. Then
for the first time her eye fell consciously upon her wedding-ring,
and thereupon came over her the sense of all that her present action
implied: the final renunciation of the marriage-tie, the assertion of
her own individuality, the beginning of another life. And yet, in spite
of her repudiation, the tie remained, indissoluble except by death, and
this little circlet of gold was the symbol. With a twinge of pain she
wrenched it off, for it was tightly fitting, and went and threw it in a
jewel box containing the jewellery that Thornton had given her. At any
rate, she could spare herself the hourly misery of this visible bond. It
was a poor kind of relief to leave it there with the other tokens of her
wifehood.