“You are right, dear. It is. And you are the most beautiful thing in
it.”
The glow deepened on her face, and a bright moisture appeared in her
eyes as she glanced upwards.
“That’s very, very foolish. But you said it as if you meant it.”
“I did indeed, Yvonne.”
“Let us go and find a place under the trees,” she said softly.
They left the main avenue and wandered on over the green turf, seeking
for a long time a piece of shade untenanted by sprawling men, or lovers,
or heterogeneous families. At last they found a lonely tree and sat down
beneath it.
“Are you happier here?” she asked.
“Much. It is so peaceful. When I was in South Africa I yearned for
civilisation and men and women. Now I am in London, I am happiest away
from them. Men are funny animals, Yvonne.”
Yvonne looked down at the ground and nervously plucked at the grass.
Then she raised her eyes quickly.
“When are you going to be quite happy, Stephen?”
“I am happy enough now.”
“But when you get home, the black mood may come over you again. Can’t
you forget all the horrid past--the prison--and all that?” It was the
first time she had ever alluded to it directly; her voice quavered on
the word.
“No, I can never forget it,” he replied in a low tone. “If I live to be
a hundred, I shall remember it on my deathbed.”
“You seem to feel it--just like a woman does--who has been on the
streets--as if nothing could wipe it away.”
He was startled. Signs had not been wanting of a change coming over
Yvonne, but he had never heard a saying on her lips of such perceptive
earnestness. It was strange, too, that she had hit upon a parallel that
had been in his mind since the night he had met Annie Stevens.
“Nothing can wipe it away, Yvonne. It is like a woman’s sense of
degradation--just as you say.”
“I would give anything--my voice over again, if I had it--to help you.
You have never told me about it--the dreadful part of it--I want to
know--every bit--tell me now, will you?”
“You would loathe me, as much as I loathe myself, if I told you.”
He was lying on one elbow, by her side. She ventured a gossamer touch
upon his forehead.
“You don’t know much about a woman, although you do write books,” she
said.
The touch and the tone awoke a great need of expansion. He struggled for
a few moments, and at last gave way.