The talk dropped a little. She stayed with him while he smoked his
cigarette, and then they went into the drawing-room. Hugh drew her chair
to the fire, set a footstool for her feet, and placed a cushion behind
her head. She thanked him shyly, trying to keep back a rush of thoughts.
Gerard had never done such a thing for her in his life. Suddenly tears
came into her eyes. Hugh bent over her, in some concern.
“My poor Renie.”
She smiled as she wiped the tears away.
“The past sometimes hurts,” she said. “But the present is healing it.”
Again their talk languished, strangely lacking spontaneity. The breath
of a new influence was hovering round them. At last Hugh rose to go.
“You look so tired that I won’t keep you up any longer. God bless you
for what you have said this evening.”
She turned her head aside quickly and began to tremble a little. He
could see the flush rising on the sweet contours of her temples, and
losing itself in the shadow of her hair. “Then you did understand?” she
murmured.
“Yes. But it was the angel and not the woman that spoke,” he said rather
huskily. “Besides, I could never ask you for what I did not feel myself
free to accept.”
She turned and faced him, looking him bravely in the eyes, while the
flush flamed into scarlet.
“You will never think--as other men might think----?”
Her insinuation flashed for the first time through his mind--that she
was urging him to marry her for social reasons.
“Good God, no!” he said. “Don’t speak of it.”
A moment afterwards they parted, and Hugh rushed down the stairs with
his temples buzzing.
CHAPTER XIX
Her divine and selfless nature had made the offer. He had unequivocally
refused it. The incident was therefore closed. Ostrich-wise he hid his
head from its consequent influences in their relations, and regarded
them as non-existent. That was the humorous aspect of his moral
attitude. On the other hand he believed in himself and in his strength
of will to withstand temptation. He knew that Irene was too strong and
proud a woman to desire marriage with him as a social rehabilitation.
In fact, the thought insulted her. He could not conceive that she loved
him, wanted him for her own sake. As for himself, he could set his teeth
and defy the heart-hunger. Should she speak again, he would disclose to
her the fact of his marriage. He hoped that no necessity would arise.