Hugh put the boy’s photograph with mechanical precision in its
accustomed place, then turned away and threw himself into the nearest
chair and rested his head on his hand. Now, for the first time, his
heart seemed to fail him. It was stone-cold with fear, the horrible
fear, of which premonitions had haunted him, off and on, during the
three years of his great happiness, lest this crime which he had
committed should cause him to forfeit Irene’s love.
He had entered the house buoyant with hope. That morning he had
received the offer of an appointment which was generally held to be the
stepping-stone to the silk of the Queen’s Counsel. He had rushed up the
stairs as eager as a boy, to tell Irene his news, and to see the quick
flush of pleasure on her cheek. So impetuous had been his entrance that
Jane, who had been awaiting his arrival with a warning word, had only
reached the foot of the stairs when he opened the drawing-room door. And
then the thunderbolt had fallen. He was too dazed as yet to speculate on
the motives of Minna’s astonishing revelation to Gerard. The bare fact
was sufficient.
Irene knew the miserable secret. The anguish in her eyes struck the
whole passionate man faint and helpless.
Suddenly he roused himself with a start, walked with a firm fast stride
through the open door, up the stairs and into Irene’s bedroom. As he
expected, she was there, on the bed, her face hidden in the pillows.
Through the open window, behind the dressing-table, came the raw, damp
air. She struggled to her feet and held out a deprecating hand as he
advanced to her.
“Irene!” he said. His heart nearly broke over the word.
“Leave me alone a little, Hugh,” she said quietly. “I will speak with
you presently. I must think.”
“Hear my story first, Irene, and that will aid the judgment you will
pass upon me.”
“I can’t judge you,” she replied. “There are feelings independent of
intellectual judgment.”
“But hear me,” he pleaded.
“I can guess it all,” she said.
“I shall have to tell it soon. Why not now? You can’t guess all. Every
minute’s delay is widening the gulf between us, dear.”
“It seems to be infinitely wide already,” she answered. “Why did you
deceive me, Hugh? I trusted you so----”
“Because I loved you.”
“Love is perfect trust,” she said.
“It is also protection. You committed a crime punishable at law for my
sake. I did the same for yours.”
“Do you suppose I would have let anything stand in the way of our
union?” she said.
“I knew that you would not, dear. But I also knew that such unions are
hard for the woman. I wanted to lighten your lot, not make it heavier.”
She shook her head, despairingly unconvinced. A word of anger, a note
of passion, would have drawn from him passionate entreaties. Her
self-contained and hopeless calm threw him back, as it were, upon
himself.
“Well. Perhaps you had better tell me now. Not here. It is cold.”
She shivered, glanced at the window, and for the first time noticed that
it was open.