Three days are sufficient for a sensation to become ancient history
in London. This truth, like most others, is tame and unobtrusive and
therefore apt to be disregarded by the still bloodshot vision of the
hero of the sensation. The man in the street had forgotten Hugh, but
Hugh overrated his memory and studiously kept out of his way. The West
End knew him not. What time he did not remain restless in his flat, he
walked or bicycled for miles into the country, filling his lungs with
the free, sweet spring air and drowning anxieties in the intoxication of
motion and freedom.
He had not yet recovered his mental balance, rudely upset by the
extraordinary termination of the trial. He knew not whether to call
himself arrant knave or blatant fool; a sorry Don Quixote, degraded at
the instant of self-plumage; or a poor marionette, with limbs jerked
ludicrously by destiny. He had faced death for a contemptuous sentiment
of personal honour, in connection with a woman he despised; life had
been purchased for him at the cost of the honour of the one woman in the
world for whom he would have gladly died a thousand deaths. How did his
honour stand? Grotesquely tragic, under any aspect.
An interview with Irene and Gerard would perhaps restore some kind of
equilibrium. But hitherto that had been denied. Twice Irene had written
a brief “not yet.” Delicacy commanded scrupulous obedience. But the
truer and still untainted fountains of his heart welled out towards
those two whose magnificent devotion transcended all power of gratitude.
And an exquisite sadness of irony was superadded. Would the jury have
convicted him, after Gardiner’s handling of the evidence? Cold reason
returned an assured negative. But this, those two should never know.
Meanwhile he hungered for the sight of Irene.
A friend visited him on the third morning after the trial; Cahusac, a
rosy, gold-spectacled man who held a high position on one of the
great dailies. Hugh was preparing to ride forth on his quest of the
intoxication of budding lanes.
“I must get Holloway out of my blood,” he explained, welcoming his
friend. “I think of nothing but God’s air and sunshine. But what brings
you from your bed at this hour?”
“Selfishness. I come begging favours.”
“I am the last one to confer them.”
“What are your plans?” asked Cahusac, throwing himself into a seat.
Hugh made a helpless gesture. “I am a ruined man, Cahusac.”
“My dear fellow, half the world forgets and the rest forgives. I have
been about much lately, sounding society. The heroic condones. Pardon my
frankness.”
“And those two?”
“Who? The Merriams? Of course they are much discussed.”
“I know,” said Hugh. “Look--you asked me for my plans. This is one. I
enter no house where I should be pardoned and the Merriams condemned.”