He was about to speak when she put out her hand and covered his mouth.
"Let me talk for a little."
She took up her parable again and spoke very gently, very sensibly. The
moonlight peacefulness was in her heart. It softened the tone of her voice
and reflected itself in unfamiliar speech.
"I seem to have grown twenty years older," she said.
She desired on that night to make her gratitude clear to him, to ask his
pardon for past offenses. She had been like a hunted animal; sometimes she
had licked his hand and sometimes she had scratched it. She had not been
quite responsible. Sometimes she had tried to send him away, for his own
sake. For herself, she had been terrified at the thought of losing him.
"Another man might have done what you did, out of chivalry; but no other
man but you would not have despised the woman. I deserved it; but I knew
you didn't despise me. You have been just the same to me all through as
you were in the early days. It braced me up and helped me to keep some sort
of self-respect. That was the chief reason why I could not let you go. Now
all is over. I am quite sane and as happy as I ever shall be. After
to-night it stands to reason we must each lead our separate lives. You
can't do anything more for me, and God knows, poor dear, I can't do
anything for you. So I want to thank you."
She put her arm around his shoulder and kissed his cheek.
Septimus flushed. Her lips were soft and her breath was sweet. No woman
save his mother had ever kissed him. He turned and took her hands.
"Let me accept that in full payment for everything. You want me to go away
happy, don't you?"
"My dear," she said, with a little catch in her voice, "if there was
anything in the world I could do to make you happy, short of throwing baby
to a tiger, I would do it."
Septimus took off his cap and brought his hair to its normal
perpendicularity. Emmy laughed.
"Dear me! What are you going to say?"
Septimus reflected for a moment.
"If I dine off a bloater in a soup-plate in the drawing-room, or if my bed
isn't made at six o'clock in the evening, and my house is a cross between a
pigsty and an ironmonger's shop, nobody minds. It is only Septimus Dix's
extraordinary habits. But if the woman who is my wife in the eyes of the
world--"
"Yes, yes, I see," she said hurriedly. "I hadn't looked at it in that
light."
"The boy is going to Cambridge," he murmured. "Then I should like him to go
into Parliament. There are deuced clever fellows in Parliament. I met one
in Venice two or three years ago. He knew an awful lot of things. We spent
an evening together on the Grand Canal and he talked all the time most
interestingly on the drainage system of Barrow-in-Furness. I wonder how
fellows get to know about drains."
Emmy said: "Would it make you happy?"
From her tone he gathered that she referred to the subject of contention
between them and not to his thirst for sanitary information.
"Of course it would."
"But how shall I ever repay you?"