It was all very pleasant, healthful, and instructive, but it no more helped
her in her quest than gazing at the jewelers' windows in the Rue de la
Paix. Snow-capped Sierras and crowded tram-cars were equally unsuggestive
of a mission in life. In the rare moments which activity allowed her for
depression she began to wonder whether she was not chasing the phantom of a
wild goose. A damsel to whom in a moment of expansion she revealed the
object of her journeying exclaimed: "What other mission in life has a woman
than to spend money and look beautiful?"
Zora laughed incredulously.
"You've accomplished half already, for you do look beautiful," said the
damsel. "The other half is easy."
"But if you haven't much money to spend?"
"Spend somebody else's. Lord! If I had your beauty I'd just walk down Wall
Street and pick up a millionaire between my finger and thumb, and carry him
off right away."
When Zora suggested that life perhaps might have some deeper significance,
the maiden answered:
"Life is like the school child's idea of a parable--a heavenly story (if
you've lots of money) with no earthly meaning."
"Don't you ever go down beneath the surface of things?" asked Zora.
"If you dig down far enough into the earth," replied the damsel, "you come
to water. If you bore down deep enough into life you come to tears. My
dear, I'm going to dance on the surface and have a good time as long as I
can. And I guess you're doing the same."
"I suppose I am," said Zora. And she felt ashamed of herself.
At Washington fate gave her an opportunity of attaining the other half of
the damsel's idea. An elderly senator of enormous wealth proposed marriage,
and offered her half a dozen motor-cars, a few palaces and most of the two
hemispheres. She declined.
"If I were young, would you marry me?"
Zora's beautiful shoulders gave the tiniest shrug of uncertainty. Perhaps
her young friend was right, and the command of the earth was worth the
slight penalty of a husband. She was tired and disheartened at finding
herself no nearer to the heart of things than when she had left Nunsmere.
Her attitude toward the once unspeakable sex had imperceptibly changed. She
no longer blazed with indignation when a man made love to her. She even
found it more agreeable than looking at cataracts or lunching with
ambassadors. Sometimes she wondered why. The senator she treated very
tenderly.
"I don't know. How can I tell?" she said a moment or two after the shrug.
"My heart is young," said he.