A throb of pain underlay the commonplace words. The anguish on his face
stirred the best and most womanly in her. She yearned to comfort him. But
he drew a pace or two away, and held up both hands as if warding her off,
and stared at her still, but with a new light in his clear eyes that drank
in her beauty and the sorcery of her presence.
"My God!" he cried, in a strained voice. "My God! What a fool I've been!"
He swerved as if he had received a blow and sank into his office chair, and
turned his eyes from her to the ground, and sat stunned with joy and wonder
and misery. He put out a hand blindly, and she took it, standing by his
side. He knew now what he wanted. He wanted her, the woman. He wanted her
voice in his ears, her kiss on his lips, her dear self in his arms. He
wanted her welcome as he entered his house, her heart, her soul, her mind,
her body, everything that was hers. He loved her for herself, passionately,
overwhelmingly, after the simple way of men. He had raised his eyes from
the deeps of hell, and in a flash she was revealed to him--incarnate
heaven.
He felt the touch of her gloved hand on his, and it sent a thrill through
his veins which almost hurt, as the newly coursing blood hurts the man that
has been revived from torpor. The mistiness that serves a strong man for
tears clouded his sight. He had longed for her; she had come. From their
first meeting he had recognized, with the visionary's glimpse of the
spiritual, that she was the woman of women appointed unto him for help and
comfort. But then the visionary had eclipsed the man. Destiny had naught to
do with him but as the instrument for the universal spreading of the Cure.
The Cure was his life. The woman appointed unto him was appointed unto the
Cure equally with himself. He had violently credited her with his insane
faith. He had craved her presence as a mystical influence that in some way
would paralyze the Jebusa Jones Dragon and give him supernatural strength
to fight. He had striven with all his power to keep her radiant like a
star, while his own faith lay dying.
He had been a fool. All the time it was the sheer woman that had held him,
the sheer man. And yet had not destiny fulfilled itself with a splendid
irony in sending her to him then, in that moment of his utter anguish, of
the utter annihilation of the fantastic faith whereby he had lived for
years? From the first he had been right, though with a magnificent lunacy.
It was she, in very truth, who had been destined to slay his dragon. It was
dead now, a vulgar, slimy monster, incapable of hurt, slain by the
lightning flash of love, when his eyes met hers, a moment or two ago. In a
confused way he realized this. He repeated mechanically:
"What a fool I've been! What a fool I've been!"
"Why?" asked Zora, who did not understand.
"Because--" he began, and then he stopped, finding no words. "I wonder
whether God sent you?"
"I'm afraid it was only Septimus," she said with a smile.
"Septimus?"