Now that the hour of meeting approached she grew nervous. Unlike Zora, she
had not inherited her father's fearlessness and joy of battle. The touch of
adventurous spirit which she had received from him had been her undoing, as
it had led her into temptation which the gentle, weak character derived
from her mother had been powerless to resist. All her life she had been
afraid of Zora, subdued by her splendid vitality, humbled before her more
generous accomplishment. And now she was to fight for her honor and her
child's and at the same time for the tender chivalry of the odd, beloved
creature that was her husband. She armed herself with woman's weapons, and
put on a brave face, though her heart thumped like some devilish machine,
racking her mercilessly.
The bell rang. She bent over the boy asleep in the bassinette and gave a
mother's touch or two to the tiny coverlet. She heard the flat door open
and Zora's rich voice inquire for Mrs. Dix. Then Zora, splendid, deep
bosomed, glowing with color, bringing with her a perfume of furs and
violets, sailed into the room and took her into her arms. Emmy felt fluffy
and insignificant.
"How well you're looking, dear. I declare you are prettier than ever.
You've filled out. I didn't come the first thing this morning as I wanted
to, because I knew you would find everything topsy-turvy in the flat.
Septimus is a dear, but I haven't much faith in his domestic capabilities."
"The flat was in perfect order," said Emmy. "Even that bunch of roses in a
jar."
"Did he remember to put in the water?"
Zora laughed, meaning to be kind and generous, to make it evident to Emmy
that she had not come as a violent partisan of Septimus, and to lay a
pleasant, familiar foundation for the discussion in prospect. But Emmy
resented the note of disparagement.
"Of course he did," she said shortly.
Zora flew to the bassinette and glowed womanlike over the baby. A beautiful
child, one to be proud of indeed. Why hadn't Emmy dear proclaimed his
uniqueness in the world of infants? From the references in her letters he
might have been the ordinary baby of every cradle.
"Oh, you ought to be such a happy woman!" she cried, taking off her furs
and throwing them over the back of a chair. "Such a happy woman!"
An involuntary sigh shook her. The first words had been intended to convey
a gentle reproof; nature had compelled the reiteration on her own account.
"I'm happy enough," said Emmy.
"I wish you could say that with more conviction, dear. 'Happy enough'
generally means 'pretty miserable.' Why should you be miserable?"
"I'm not. I have more happiness than I deserve. I don't deserve much."
Zora put her arm round her sister's waist.
"Never mind, dear. We'll try to make you happier."