Sypher was in. He would have finished for the day in about twenty minutes.
Then he would come to her on the nearest approach to wings London
locomotion provided.
"Remember, it's something most particular that I want to see you about,"
said Zora. "Good-by."
She rang off, and went up-stairs again, removed the traces of tears from
her face and changed her dress. For a few moments she regarded her outward
semblance somewhat anxiously in the glass, unconscious of a new coquetry.
Then she sat down before the sitting-room fire and looked at the inner Zora
Middlemist.
There was never woman, since the world began, more cast down from her high
estate. Not a shred of magnificence remained. She saw herself as the most
useless, vaporing and purblind of mortals. She had gone forth from the
despised Nunsmere, where nothing ever happened, to travel the world over in
search of realities, and had returned to find that Nunsmere had all the
time been the center of the realities that most deeply concerned her life.
While she had been talking others had been living. The three beings whom
she had honored with her royal and somewhat condescending affection had all
done great things, passed through flames and issued thence purified with
love in their hearts. Emmy, Septimus, Sypher, all in their respective ways,
had grappled with essentials. She alone had done nothing--she the strong,
the sane, the capable, the magnificent. She had been a tinsel failure. So
far out of touch had she been with the real warm things of life which
mattered that she had not even gained her sister's confidence. Had she done
so from her girlhood up, the miserable tragedy might not have happened. She
had failed in a sister's elementary duty.
As a six weeks' wife, what had she done save shiver with a splendid
disgust? Another woman would have fought and perhaps have conquered. She
had made no attempt, and the poor wretch dead, she had trumpeted abroad her
crude opinion of the sex to which he belonged. At every turn she had seen
it refuted. For many months she had known it to be vain and false; and
Nature, who with all her faults is at least not a liar, had spoken over and
over again. She had raised a fine storm of argument, but Nature had
laughed. So had the Literary Man from London. She had a salutary vision of
herself as the common geck and gull of the queerly assorted pair. She
recognized that in order to work out any problem of life one must accept
life's postulates and axioms. Even her mother, from whose gentle lips she
rarely expected to hear wisdom, had said: "I don't see how you're going to
'live,' dear, without a man to take care of you." Her mother was right,
Nature was right, Rattenden was right. She, Zora Middlemist, had been
hopelessly wrong.
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