I swallowed it and handed her back the glass.
“I feel all the better for that, too.”
As I sat in the shade of the little stone summer-house within the Greek
portico, she lingered in the blazing sunshine, a figure all glorious
health and supple curves, and the stray brown hairs above the brown mass
gleamed with the gold of a Giotto aureole. She stood, a duskily glowing,
radiant emblem of life against the background of spring greenery and
rioting convolvulus. I drew a full breath and looked at her as
if magnetised. I had the very oddest sensation. She seemed, in
Shakespearean phrase, to rain influence upon me. As if she read the
stirrings of my blood, she smiled and said:
“After all, confess, isn't it good to be alive?”
A thrill of physical well-being swept through me. I leaped to my feet.
“You witch!” I cried. “What are you doing to me?”
“I?” She retreated a step, with a laugh.
“Yes, you. You are casting a spell on me, so that I may eat my words.”
“I don't know what you are talking about, but you haven't answered my
question. It _is_ good to be alive.”
“Well, it is,” I assented, losing all sense of consistency.
She flourished the egg-and-brandy glass. “I'm so glad. Now I know you
are really well, and will face life as you faced death, like the brave
man that you are.”
I cried to her to hold. I had not intended to go as far as that. I
confronted death with a smile; I meet life with the wriest of wry faces.
She would have none of my arguments.
“No matter how damnable it is--it's splendid to be alive, just to feel
that you can fight, just to feel that you don't care a damn for any old
thing that can happen, because you're strong and brave. I do want you
to get back all that you've lost, all that you've lost through me, and
you'll do it. I know that you'll do it. You'll just go out and smash up
the silly old world and bring it to your feet. You will, Simon, won't
you? I know you will.”
She quivered like an optimistic Cassandra.
“My dear Lola,” said I.
I was touched. I took her hand and raised it to my lips, whereat she
flushed like a girl.
“Did you come here to tell me all this?”
“No,” she replied simply. “It came all of a sudden, as I was standing
here. I've often wanted to say it. I'm glad I have.”
She threw back her head and regarded me a moment with a strange, proud
smile; then turned and walked slowly away, her head brushing the long
scarlet clusters of the pepper trees.
CHAPTER XVII