For as much of the day as she could spare from the miserable formalities
and arrangements attendant on the death of a human being, Clementina
made a fool of herself over the child. It was a feminine scrap hungering
for love, kitten-like in its demand for caresses. Contentedly nestling
in Clementina’s arms, she related, piecemeal, her tiny history. Her name
was Sheila, and she loved her father who was very ill. So ill that she
had only been able to see him once since they had come off the ship.
That was yesterday, and she had been frightened, for he said that he was
going to mummy. Now mummy had gone to heaven, and when people go to
heaven you never see them again. With a pang Clementina asked her if she
remembered when her mummy went to heaven. Oh yes. It was ever so long
ago—when she was quite little. Daddy cried, cried, cried. She, too,
would cry if daddy were to go to heaven. . . . Clementina thought it
best to wait and accustom the child both to the idea of the eternal
parting and to herself, before breaking the disastrous news. But her
heart was wrung. Sometimes Sheila revolted and clamoured to see him; but
on the whole she showed herself to be reasonable and docile. She hugged
to her side a shapeless and very dirty white plush cat, her inseparable
companion. . . . They had lived in a big house in Shanghai, with lots of
servants; but her father had sold it and sold all the furniture, and
they were going to live in England for ever and ever. England was a
place all full of green trees and grass and cows and flowers. Did
Clementina know England?
“Suppose daddy goes to heaven, would you like to come and live with me?”
asked Clementina.
Sheila replied seriously that she would sooner live with her than with
Na. Na was a new Na. Her old Na was in Shanghai. Her husband wouldn’t
let her come to England. Only Clementina would have to cuddle her to
sleep every night, like her daddy. Na didn’t cuddle her to sleep. She
thought she didn’t know how. Daddy, she repeated like a young parrot,
had said that was the worst of getting a nurse who had never had
children of her own. They were so darned helpless. Clementina winced;
but she put her arm round the child again.
“You’re not afraid of my not being able to cuddle you, Sheila?”
“Oh, you—you cuddle lovely,” murmured Sheila.
Who was her mother? Clementina had no notion. Hammersley had never
announced the fact of his marriage. The last time she had seen him was
six years ago. The child gave herself out to be five and a half.
Hammersley must have married just before leaving England. He had
breathed not a word to anybody. But so had Will Hammersley acted all his
life. He was one who gave and never sought; a man who received the
confidence of all who knew him, and kept the secrets both of joy and
sorrow of his own life hidden behind his smiling eyes.