He began again to wonder concerning this newly discovered son, strove to
visualize him. A broad, upstanding fellow, like himself. Fairer—he got
that from his mother. A fine, soldierly figure in khaki. But only a
boy—just twenty. And he had thrown everything to the winds on the
outbreak of war and had been fighting in France—that child—for two
years. He drew a sharp breath, as a sudden thought smote him. The boy
might have been killed. Apparently he was still alive. Otherwise
Sheepshanks would surely have heard. But supposing—supposing. . . . He
shivered at the thought of it.
Half an hour, an hour—he was unconscious of time—passed. Then the door
opened and Sheepshanks appeared, followed by a short-bearded man in
clerical tweeds.
“A bit of luck. I found Crosby in. I’ve told him everything, and he has
been kind enough to come along.”
Said Dr. Crosby a while later: “I have brought with me the boy’s last
letter—only a week old. Perhaps you would like to see it.”
Baltazar stretched out an impatient hand. This thing so essentially
personal, the first objective token of his son’s existence, affected him
deeply. The words swam before his eyes. He turned to the end to see the
signature. His thumb against it, he held out the paper to Sheepshanks,
and said in a shaking voice:
“That’s my handwriting. He has the same trick of the ‘B’ and the ‘z.’”
The letter informed the master that he was still at Churton Towers, near
Godalming; that the stump obstinately refused to heal completely, owing
perhaps to the original gangrene; that he hoped they would not chuck him
out of the Army, because, with a brand new foot, he could be useful in
hundreds of ways; but that, if they did, he would come up and continue
to read for his degree.
“May I keep this, Crosby?” asked Baltazar; and, permission given, he
folded it up and put it in his pocket. Then he turned to Sheepshanks.
“Why didn’t you tell me at first what had happened?”
“My dear fellow,” said Sheepshanks, “I only heard he had been wounded. I
was unaware of details. That’s why I went at once to Crosby. In these
days one must be discreet.”
“Yes, no doubt,” said Baltazar, absently. He paced the room for a few
moments. Then halting: “I must see this son of mine. But I must see him
in my own way. Will you do me a favour not to let him know of my
reappearance until I send you word?”
“Certainly,” said Dr. Crosby.
“Thanks,” said he.
He walked to and fro, his head full of the tragedy of this maimed young
life. He looked from one unemotional face to the other. Their attitude
was incomprehensible. Crosby, before showing him the letter, had spoken
of wound and amputation in the most matter-of-fact, unfeeling way.
Suddenly he burst out indignantly: