During her drive from Churton Towers in the motor-cab, foolish
trepidations beset her. Although her woman of the world’s sound sense
made mock of timidities, yet old-maidish instincts questioned the
propriety of her proceeding. She was going to meet her former lover in a
private room of an hotel. What about professional decorum? Matron, who
kept a hard and unsympathetic eye on flirtatious tendencies in the
junior staff, would regard her visit, should she come to know of it, as
a horrifying escapade. She had seen her as she ran down the steps,
hatted, gloved, prinked to her best, with a betraying flush (lobster
colour, she thought) on her cheek; and being within earshot of the
Gorgon, she had thrown the mere word “Godalming” at the chauffeur as she
entered the car. When she gathered up courage to look at herself in the
strip of mirror that faced her, her prejudiced eyes saw herself pale and
haggard, smitten with lines which she had not noticed when she put on
her hat. And all the time she knew that these feminine preoccupations
were but iridescences on the surface of deep, black waters filled with
fear, and that she was letting her mind play on them so as not to think
of the depths.
Baltazar was waiting for her outside the hotel. Thus one little fear was
sent packing. As a nurse she would have gone to Hell Gates to enquire
for a man. She had done it many a time in France. As Marcelle Baring she
was restrained by futile hesitancies. As Marcelle Baring, a woman with
her own life to lead, she was unfamiliar to herself. She had shrunk from
entering the inn alone and asking for Mr. Baltazar. But there he was
awaiting her on the pavement, and no sooner had the car stopped than he
had opened the door and helped her to alight. And following him through
the passage and up the narrow staircase, while he talked loud and cheery
and confident, as though he defied gossiping tongues, and every minute
turned to smile upon her, she remembered with a little pang of remorse
for unjust fears, that as now so it had been in the beginning; that
there never had been a tryst hard or venturesome for her to keep, never
one on which he was not there before her, big, responsible, inspiring
confidence. He was singularly unchanged.
Obeying a breezy wave of the hand, she sank into an arm-chair. He shut
the door and crossed the room, his face lit with happiness.