THEY arranged it all between them in the comfortingly short-sighted way
of thousands of reprehensible couples before them. They spoke vaguely of
a divorce as though the wretched Edgar were the conjugal offender, and
pictured a time in the future, after the war, when they should marry and
live the bright and perfect life. In the meanwhile they proposed to find
much happiness and consolation together. He gave her, she declared, what
she had vainly been hungering for since early childhood—love and
sympathy and understanding. Into his sensitive ears she poured the story
of her disastrous marriage; of the far separated lives of her husband
and herself; of his envies and trivial basenesses. Godfrey had thought
her courted and flattered, a woman passing rich in love and friendship.
Really she had moved the loneliest thing on earth. Didn’t he see now
what he meant to her? She had been starving and he gave her food. If he
withdrew it now, she would die.
This self-abasement from high estate established her martyrdom in the
eyes of chivalrous youth. He swore eternal devotion, his soul
registering the vow. They wrote frequently to each other, and met as
often as they could. Three mornings a week, at an astonishingly early
hour, she left her house soberly clad, for the purpose of working at a
mythical canteen. On those mornings Godfrey waited for her at a discreet
distance round the corner of the square, in a two-seater car for which,
as a crippled staff officer, he had contrived to obtain a petrol permit.
An hour’s run—Richmond Park, Barnes Common: it mattered little
where—and Lady Edna went demurely home to breakfast and Godfrey to his
day’s work at the War Office.
Of the canteen Edgar Donnithorpe knew nothing, for she had merely tossed
the invention to her maid, until one morning, coming down earlier than
usual, he met her ascending the stairs.
“Good lord!” said he. “What have you been doing at this unearthly hour?”
Irritated at having to lie to him, she replied: “I’ve been doing an
hour’s shift at a canteen. Have you any objection?”
He shrugged his shoulders. “Why should I? If it pleases you and doesn’t
hurt the Tommies—poor devils.”
His sneer jarred on her guilty sensitiveness. Her eyes hardened. “Why
poor devils?”
“Like the rest of the country,” he replied, “at the mercy of the
amateur.”
He turned with his thin laugh and left her speechless with futile anger.
She wondered how she had ever regarded him otherwise than with
unmitigated hatred.
She told the incident to Godfrey, having reached the point of confiding
to him such domestic bickerings. He set his teeth and damned the fellow.
How could this incomparable angel dwell in the same house with him? She
sighed. If it were not for the war. . . . But during the war the house
was the centre of her manifold activities on behalf of the country. As
for the social side of it, she would throw that up to-morrow only too
gladly. Heavens, how weary she was of it all!