She arrived about half-past eight, and he received her in the
drawing-room. She wore a simple, semi-evening old black dress into which
she had changed before her quiet dinner with her friend, a long pre-war
confection, a favourite of Godfrey’s, moulding her, as he said, in
soldierly daring, like Juno. Her thick brown hair crowned her
gloriously. Rest had restored her to health, and in spite of the anxiety
in her eyes, she appeared to Baltazar in the ripe fullness of her
beauty. He strode to meet her, with his usual gesture of outstretched
hands, strong, confident, admiring, smiling. Yet never did she appear
more desirable, or more remote from his desires.
“What is the meaning of it—your resignation? I thought it was the one
thing in life you were working for.”
“I find,” said he, “I can serve my country better in other ways.”
She put a hand to a puzzled forehead.
“How?”
He looked steadily into her eyes. What was the use of beating the air
with idle words? She would have to know the truth sooner or later.
“By going to China.”
She stared at him open-mouthed.
“China?”
“Why not?”
He stood, his hands deep in his dinner-jacket pockets, balancing himself
alternately on toes and heels, with the air of a conqueror.
“I know more about inner China, I suppose, than any man living. I go out
with a free hand to pull two or three million people together and
establish a wise government and exterminate the German. Hundreds of men
can do my job in England. But those who can do it in China may be
counted on the fingers of a mutilated hand.”
“It’s all so sudden.”
“I’m a sudden sort of fellow, as you ought to know,” he laughed.
“But you always said you hated the place—would rather die than go
back.”
“In these days you’ve got to do things you hate—for the good of your
country.”
She sat down, feeling stupefied by his news. She asked:
“How long will you be away?”
He shrugged his shoulders. “Possibly years. Who knows?”
“And when do you start?”
“As soon as I can wind up here. Say in a fortnight’s time.” She shook
her head and looked at the floor, making little hopeless gestures with
her fingers. “You see, my dear,” said he, “except my own personal
ambitions, which I have scrapped for the time, there’s nothing very much
to keep me here. I’ve done my duty by Quong Ho. He’s on the road to fame
at Cambridge. Godfrey’s settled in France till the end of the war. And
you—well, my dear,” he smiled, “we won’t lose touch with each other for
another twenty years.”
“No, of course not,” she said in a queer voice. “We’ll—we’ll write to
each other.” She raised her eyes to his timidly. “Won’t you be rather
lonely out there, without us?”