The Life of Benjamin Franklin: With Many Choice Anecdotes and admirable sayings of this great man never before published by any of his biographers
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As nothing is so repellant of base minds as poverty, soon as Ralph
found that Ben's pistoles were all gone, and his finances reduced to
the beggarly ebb of living _from hand to mouth_, he "_cleared out_,"
and betook himself into the country to teach _school_, whence he was
continually writing fine poetical epistles to Ben, not forgetting in
every postscript, to put him in mind of his dear Dulcinea, the fair
milliner, and to commend her to his kindness. As to Ben, he still
persevered, after Ralph's departure, in his good old habits of
industry and economy--never indulging in tobacco or gin--never
sauntering to taverns or play houses, nor at any time laying out his
money but on books, which he always visited, as frugal lovers do their
sweethearts, at night. But still it would not all do. He could lay up
nothing. The daily postage of Ralph's long poetical epistles, with the
unceasing application of the poor milliner, kept his purse continually
in a galloping consumption. At length he obtained a release from this
unpleasant situation, though in a way that he himself never could
think of afterwards without a blush.
After very frequent loans of money to her, she came, it seems, one
night to his lodgings on the old errand--_to borrow half a guinea_!
when Ben, who had been getting too fond of her, took this opportunity
to offer freedoms which she highly resented.
This Ben tells himself, with a candour that will for ever do him
credit among those who know that the confession of folly is the first
step on the way to wisdom.
"Having, at that time," says he, "no ties of religion upon me, and
taking advantage of her necessitous situation, I attempted liberties
(_another great error of my life_,) which she repelled with _becoming
indignation_. She informed Ralph; and the affair occasioned a breach
between us. When he returned to London, he gave to understand that he
considered all the obligations he owed me as annihilated by this
proceeding; and that I was not to expect _one farthing of all the
monies I had lent him_."