"All right," he said. "I'll come to the point. I shan't see you again.
I'm going out in command. Thank God we're in the thick of it. Round
about Loos. It's a thousand to one I'll be killed. Life doesn't matter
much to me, in spite of what you may think. There are only two people
on God's earth I care for. One, of course, is my old mother. The other
is Betty Fairfax--I mean Betty Connor. I spoke to you once about
her--after I had met her here--and I gave you to understand that I had
broken off our engagement from conscientious motives. It was an awkward
position and I had to say something. As a matter of fact I acted
abominably. But I couldn't help it." The corners of his lips suddenly
worked in the odd little twitch. "Sometimes circumstances, especially
if a man's own damn foolishness has contrived them, tie him hand and
foot. Sometimes physical instincts that he can't control." He narrowed
his eyes and bent forward, looking at me intently, and he repeated the
phrase slowly--"Physical instincts that he can't control-"
Was he referring to the incident of yesterday? I thought so. I also
believed it was the motive power of this strangely intimate
conversation.
He rose again as though restless, and once more went to the window and
seemed to seek inspiration or decision from the sight of my roses.
After a short while he turned and dragged up from his neck a slim chain
at the end of which hung a round object in a talc case. This he
unfastened and threw on the table in front of me.
"Do you know what that is?"
"Yes," said I. "Your identification disc."
"Look on the other side."
I took it up and found that the reverse contained the head cut out from
some photograph of Betty. After I had handed back the locket, he
slipped it on the chain and dropped it beneath his collar.
"I'm not a damned fool," said he.
I nodded understandingly. No one would have accused him of mawkish
sentiment. The woman whose portrait he wore night and day next his skin
was the woman he loved. He had no other way of proving his sincerity
than by exhibiting the token.
"I see," said I. "What do you propose to do?"
"I've told you. The V.C. or--" He snapped his fingers.
"But if it's the V.C. and a Brigade, and perhaps a Division--if it's
everything else imaginable except--" I snapped my fingers in
imitation--"What then?"
Again the hateful twitch of the lips, which he quickly dissimulated in
a smile.