Looking over my diary I find that these months were singularly
uneventful as far as the lives of those dealt with in this chronicle
were concerned. In the depths of our souls we felt the long-drawn-out
agony of the war, with its bitter humiliations, its heartrending
disappointments. In our daily meetings one with another we cried aloud
for a great voice to awaken the little folk in Great Britain from their
selfish lethargy--the little folk in high office, in smug burgessdom,
in seditious factory and shipyard. They were months of sordid
bargaining between all sections of our national life, in the murk of
which the glow of patriotism seemed to be eclipsed. And in the
meantime, the heroic millions from all corners of our far-flung Empire
were giving their lives on land and sea, gaily and gallantly, too often
in tragic futility, for the ideals to which the damnable little folk at
home were blind. The little traitorous folk who gambled for their own
hands in politics, the little traitorous folk who put the outworn
shibboleths of a party before the war-cry of an Empire, the little
traitorous folk who strove with all their power to starve our navy of
ships, our ships of coal, our men in the trenches of munitions, our
armies of men, our country of honour--all these will one day be
mercilessly arraigned at the bar of history. The plains of France, the
steeps of Gallipoli, the swamps of Mesopotamia, the Seven Seas will
give up their dead as witnesses.
We spoke bitterly of all these things and thought of them with raging
impotence; but the even tenor of our life went on. We continued to do
our obscure and undistinguished work for the country. It became a
habit, part of the day's routine. We almost forgot why we were doing
it. The war seemed to make little real difference in our social life.
The small town was pitch black at night. Prices rose. Small economies
were practised. Labour was scarce. Fewer young men out of uniform were
seen in the streets and neighbouring roads and lanes. Groups of wounded
from the hospital in their uniform of deep blue jean with red ties and
khaki caps gave a note of actuality to the streets. Otherwise, there
were few signs of war. Even the troops who hitherto swarmed about the
town had gradually been removed from billets to a vast camp of huts
some miles away, and appeared only sporadically about the place. I
missed them and the stimulus of their presence. They brought me into
closer touch with things. Marigold, too, pined for more occupation for
his one critical eye than was afforded by the local volunteers. He grew
morose, sick of a surfeit of newspapers. If he could have gone to
France and got through to the firing-line, I am sure he would have dug
a little trench all to himself and defied the Germans on his own
account.