“I could have done nothing without the help of that damned little black
book. Don’t you see how the necromancy of the thing gripped me—how it
has got its diabolical revenge? I told you not to ask me questions,”
Triona burst out fiercely. “You’re trying to make me defend myself.” He
swung away, then laughed mirthlessly. “There seems to be a poetic
justice in life. This room in which we have spent so many hours—it’s
filled from floor to ceiling with my lies. Now I come with Truth, a sort
of disinfectant. Perhaps I was driven back just to do it.”
Olifant knitted a perplexed brow. Such fantastic psychologies were
beyond his simple scientific habit of mind. He said:
“You told me you came here on account of Olivia.”
“Of course.”
“Well—I must ask you again the same everlasting ‘Why?’ How could you
dare to marry her with this lie on your soul?”
“Yes. How dared I?” said Triona dejectedly.
“But wouldn’t it have been quite simple to tell her the truth? You could
have afforded to make a clean breast of it. You had proved yourself a
remarkable man, apart from—from the Triona myth. And she is big enough
to have stood it. Why, in God’s name, didn’t you trust her?”
Triona threw out his hands helplessly. He did not know. Again he pleaded
the unseen power that had driven him. When he had tried to resist, it
was too late.
“And now you think me a fool and a knave.”
“I think you’re a fool,” said Olifant.
“But not a scoundrel? I should like to know. You were the first man who
really held out the hand of friendship to me. Till then people regarded
me as an interesting specimen. You took me on my human side. I shall
never forget coming to your sister’s house at Oxford. It was a new and
wonderful atmosphere.”
“If that is so,” said Olifant, “why didn’t it compel
confidence—something of the real truth? I see you now telling my sister
and myself your fairy tale; in the same fervid way as you’ve been
telling me the truth this morning.”
Triona rose and put on his jacket which now was dry.
“How can I hope to make you understand, when I don’t understand myself?
Besides,” he flashed, after shrugging himself impatiently into the
garment, “haven’t I said I wasn’t seeking condonation or sympathy?”
“You asked me whether I thought you a scoundrel,” said Olifant quietly.
“Well, do you? Say I am, and have done with it.”
“If I did, I don’t see what good it would do,” replied Olifant, a vague
comprehension of this imaginative alien soul dawning on his mind.
“You’re out for penance in the same crazy way you’ve been out for
everything else. So you hand me the scourge and tell me to lay on. But I
won’t. Also—if I committed myself by calling you an unmitigated
blackguard, I couldn’t give you the advice that it’s in my heart to give
you.”
“And what’s that?”
“To go back to Olivia and do your penance with her by telling and living
the truth. _Magna est veritas et prævalebit._ Especially with a woman
who loves you.”