And just as he had fallen under the obsession of the dead Krilov during
the night watches in the North Sea, so did he fall under the obsession
of this new Great Cause. Something fundamentally histrionic in his
temperament flung him into these excesses of impersonation. Already he
began to regret his resumption of the plain name of John Briggs. Even in
the pre-war Russian days he had seldom been addressed by it. For the
first social enquiry in Russia elicited the Christian name of a man’s
father. And his father’s name being Peter, he was called by all and
sundry Ivan Petrovitch. So that even then, in his fervent zeal to merge
himself into the Russian spirit, he had grown to regard the two
downright words of his name as meaningless monosyllables. But he
strangled the regret fiercely as soon as it arose.
“No, by heaven!” said he, “No more lies.”
And yet, in spite of unalterable resolve, as he lay sleepless with
overwrought nerves in the sour room in the Euston Road, he was haunted
by lunatic Polish forms, Brigiovski, Brigowski, which he might adopt
without breaking his vow; he could not see himself in the part of a
Polish patriot labelled as John Briggs; just as well might a great actor
seek to identify himself with Hamlet while wearing cricketing flannels
and a bowler hat.
Only once in his talks with Boronowski did he refer to the unhappiness
to which he was to apply the sovereign remedy. The days were passing
without sign of immediate departure. Boronowski, under the orders of his
superiors, must await instructions. Triona chafed at the delay.
Boronowski smiled indulgently.
“The first element in devotion to a cause, or a woman, is patience.
Illimitable patience. The demands of a cause are very much like those of
a woman, apparently illogical and capricious, but really inexorable and
unswerving in their purpose.”
“It’s all very well to talk of patience,” Triona fumed, “but when one is
hag-ridden as I am——”
Boronowski smiled again. “_Histoire de femme——_”
Triona flushed scarlet and sprang to his feet.
“How dare you twist my words like that?”
Boronowski looked at him for a puzzled moment, seeking the association
of ideas. Then, grasping it:
“Forgive me, my friend,” he said courteously. “My English, after all, is
that of a foreigner. The word connection was far from my mind. I took
your speech to mean that you were driven by unhappiness. And the
unhappiness of a young man is so often—— Again, I beg your pardon.”
Triona passed his hand through his brown hair.
“All right,” he said, “I’m sorry. Yes. If you want to know, it’s a
woman. She’s the day-spring from on high, and I’m damned beyond
redemption. The best thing that could happen would be if she knew I were
dead.”
Boronowski tugged at his little greyish-red beard. A follower of great
causes was never the worse for having the Furies at his heels. But he
was a man of kindly nature.