Driven by the impossibility of sleep in the frowsy room, by the
incurable wander-fever which took him at periods of unrest, he found
himself an hour later standing before the block of flats in the
Buckingham Palace Road, staring up at the windows of his home. In the
bedroom was a faint streak of light quite visible from below through a
crack in the curtains. He remembered how, a year ago, he had been
compelled by a similar impulse, to stand romantically beneath the
building which housed her sacredness, and how the gods, smiling on him,
had delivered her into his rescuing hands. And now there were no
gods—or if there were, they did but mock him. No white wraith would
appear on the pavement, turning to warm flesh and blood, demanding his
succour. She was up there, wakeful, behind that streak of light.
He stood racked by an agony of temptation. The Yale latch key was still
at the end of his watch-chain. He was her husband. He had the right of
entrance. His being clamoured for her, and found utterance in a horrible
little cry. The light invited him like a beacon. Yes. He would cross the
road. Perhaps the fool Olifant was right. She might yet love him. And
then, as if in answer to his half-crazed imaginings, the light went out.
He turned, and walked wearily back across sleeping London.
It was four o’clock when the night porter admitted him. He stumbled to
his room. As his train left Victoria at eight, it would be an absurdity
to undress and go to bed. Utterly weary, he threw himself on it as he
was, his brain whirling. There could be no question of sleep.
Yet suddenly he became conscious of daylight. He started up and looked
at his watch. It was past seven. He had slept after all. He made a
perfunctory toilet and hurriedly completed his neglected packing. The
drowsy night porter, on duty till eight, tardily answered his summons,
and took his suit-case to the shabby vestibule. Triona followed, with
heavy great coat and canvas kit-bag, his purchases for the campaign. The
porter suggested breakfast. There was no time. Luckily he had paid his
bill the evening before. All he demanded was a taxi.
But at that early hour of the morning there were none, save a
luggage-laden few bound for St. Pancras or King’s Cross.
“I can’t leave the hotel, sir,” said the porter, “or I would get you one
from Euston.”