If she, although his wife, had stood away; if she had been dissociated
from his deceptions; if nothing more had occurred than the exposure of
the Triona myth, she might have forgiven him. But the deceptions had
been interwoven with the sacred threads of her love; she could not
forgive that intimate entanglement. To a woman the little things are as
children, as the little ones whose offenders Christ cursed with the
millstone and the sea. She had lain awake, his forgotten wrist-watch on
her arm, picturing him tossed by the waves of the North Sea in the
execution of her country’s errand. She had proudly told a hundred people
of the Bolshevist gyve-marks around his ankle. She had been moved to her
depths by the tragical romance of the fictitious Vronsky. In her heart
there had been hot rebellion against a Foreign Office keeping
strangle-hold on a heroic servant and restricting his freedom of action.
These little sufferings he had caused her she could not forgive. While
inflicting them, he knew that she suffered.
In vain did Olifant, unversed in the psychology of woman, plead the
cause of the erratic creature that was her husband. In vain did he set
out his honourable and uncontested record; that of a man whose response
to the call of duty was unquestioned; of whose courage and endurance she
had received personal testimony; who had cheerfully suffered wounds, the
hardships of flight through Revolutionary Russia, the existence on a
mine-sweeper on perilous seas ending in the daily dreaded catastrophe;
the record of a man who, apart from his fraud, had justified himself as
a queer, imaginative genius, writing of life in a new way, in a new,
vibrating style that had compelled the attention of the English-speaking
world. In vain did he adduce the boyish charm of the man. Olivia sighed.
“I don’t know him as you see him,” she said.
“Then what can I do?” he asked.
She shook a despairing head. “Nothing, my dear Blaise.” She rubbed the
palm of one hand on the back of the other, and turned her great dark
eyes on him. “You can’t do anything, but you’ve done something. You’ve
shown me how loyal a man can be.”
He protested vaguely. “My dear Olivia . . .”
“It’s true,” she said. “And I’ll always remember it. And now, don’t let
us ever talk about this again.”
“As you will,” said he. “But what are you going to do?”
She replied as she had done to Myra. She would carry on.
“Until when?”
She shrugged her shoulders. She would carry on indefinitely. To act
otherwise would open the door to gossip. She was not going to be done to
death by slanderous tongues. She rose and stood before him in slim,
rigid dignity.
“If I can’t out-brave the world, I’m a poor thing.”
“You stay here, then?” he asked.
“Why not? Where else should I go?”
“I came with a little note from my sister,” said Olifant, drawing a
letter from his pocket and handing it to her.
Olivia read it through. Then she said, in a softened voice:
“You’re a dear, kind friend.”