She weakened through impatience at his aloofness, craving to know all
that had happened to him, to get to the roots of Myra’s mysterious
intrigue. His fatalistic attitude was maddening. The whole crazy
combination of tragedy and farce that had set them down in the
gorse-enclosed hollow of the hill-side, as though they were the only
people on God’s earth, was maddening. The brass buttons were maddening.
She flung sudden arms out wide.
“For God’s sake tell me everything that has happened to you.”
“If you’ll believe it,” said he.
She sat silent for a moment, feeling as though she were under his
rebuke, and gazed over the valley at the hills black beneath the dying
green and faded orange of the sunset. The thin smoke of the burned car
mounted into the windless air faint with the smell of petrol fumes and
scorched woodwork. And Triona looked down too and saw the end of the
creation of his resurrection. He pointed to it.
“That was one of my little dreams,” he said gently. “A sort of rat trap
on wheels—the most hopeless box of antiquated imbecility you can
imagine. I took it into my head to recreate it. For a time I devoted my
soul to it—and I made it a thing of life and speed and obedience. And
there it lies dead, a column of smoke, like all dreams and, all my
deliberate fault. Every system of philosophy, since the world began, has
overlooked the ironical symbolism of life. That’s one; and my
dream—smoke.”
She fell under the spell of his voice, although her brain revolted. Yet
his note rang sincere in her heart—she knew not what to say. The sunset
colours over the ridge of hills died into iron blue of the sky. A faint
breeze stirred. She shivered with cold in her thin Tussore silk. He,
watching her, saw the shiver.
“You’re cold, you must be getting back.” He rose.
She sprang to her feet before he could help her to rise.
“I’ll see you to Mrs. Pettiland’s.”
They scrambled to the high road above them, and began to walk, in
constrained silence. Suddenly she cried:
“You’ve hurt yourself. You’re limping dreadfully. You told me you were
unhurt——” She clutched his arm. “You can’t go on like this.”
“I’ll go on like this,” said he, thrilling under her touch, “to the day
of my death. It has nothing to do with this evening’s entertainment. I
was smashed up by a motor-lorry over a year ago, as Myra will tell you.
That’s what knocked me out of Poland.”
She echoed his words—“Smashed up by a motor-lorry?—It might have
killed you—and I should have never known.”
“Myra would have told you. As a matter of fact it very nearly did kill
me.”
She turned her head away with a shudder.
“And just now——”
“I ought to have waited till I had turned the corner—” he pointed out
the bend a few yards in front of them. “Hell’s Corner, they call it
hereabouts. Then you wouldn’t have seen me go over, and I might have had
better luck.”