The act brought the woman in her to his feet. Who was she to judge the
creation of an artist's genius? Had he let it stand, she would have
loved the picture. The annihilation, at her bidding, of the result of
days of artistic travail smote her with a sense of guilt. She was ready
to lament a lost masterpiece. She would never rest until he repainted
it. He magnanimously refused. The first impression of a picture on a
pure and beautiful soul was the true one. She would be the touchstone of
all his life's work. He sent her away at once raised and humbled. But
to make amends, she threw herself earnestly into a new conception of
the subject that he put before her, and watched it taking shape upon the
canvas with intense eagerness. And in the meanwhile the Colony was not
quite so much on the surface of her thoughts. Now and then, however, she
questioned him anxiously. Once he turned upon her in solemn reproach,--
“Do I understand that you are afraid of my faltering in the sacred cause
to which we have devoted ourselves?”
Ella was impressed with his dignity and again rebuked herself for her
want of faith. Women are indignant when they are told how often they are
taken in by fustian.
November came. She met Sylvester at dinner one evening at Lady Milmo's
for the first time since the At Home in July, given to celebrate her
engagement. He sat silent during the meal. Roderick, who made the
fourth, was in his gayest mood. Rebellious defiance again came uppermost
in the girl's heart, and she strove to put forward all her brilliance.
She compared the two men: one, cold, sombre, severe,--a mere intellect
clothed in the outer semblance of humanity; the other warm-hearted,
enthusiastic, sensitive to every impression of life, and gifted with
a perception of a world that had never entered into the purview of
his fellow's dreams. She fortified her unmitigated resentment against
Sylvester with disdain. How could she ever have loved such a bloodless
piece of mechanism? She lashed with scorn her girlish folly. A
heightened colour and an added lustre to her eyes rendered dazzling her
ordinary girlish beauty.
“You are not one, but all wondrous womankind's epitome to-night,”
whispered Roderick, in the drawing-room afterwards.
“That is foolishness,” she replied, “but I--I was just going to say I
have never felt so proud of you as I have done this evening.”
Roderick laughed. “I'm afraid it is because dear old Syl sits by so glum
while I'm such a chatterbox,” he said.
Ella shot a swift glance upwards. Really this man had marvellous
intuition. Could he ever have suspected--? Her cheek burned. But to her
comforting no trace of malicious insinuation lurked in the frankness of
his eyes. His deprecation of her tribute was sincere.