Yet she did not care. Under the blasphemous roof of her Aunt Clothilde
she could not have remained. For, in verity, blasphemy had been spoken.
Her father was loved and honoured by all the world; by her mother, by
Uncle Gaspard, by Corinna, by Martin. And she herself—did she not know
her father? Was there ever a man like him? The insulting words rang
through her brain. She would have confronted terrors a million fold more
grisly than these in order to escape from the blasphemer, whom she could
never forgive—no, not for all the curés and abbés in Christendom. An
intense little soul was that of Félise Fortinbras. It swept her
irresistibly out of the unhallowed villa, with a handbag containing a
nightgown, a toothbrush and a faded little photograph of her father and
mother standing side by side in wedding garb, on the way to the dread,
fascinating whirlpool of Paris, where dwelt the worshipped gods of her
idolatry. And, as she sat in the comforting lee of the fat and unafraid
peasant woman and her bundles and her children, she took herself to task
for cowardice.
The journey, under two hours, was but a trifle. Had it been to Brantôme,
an all-night affair, she might have had reason for quailing. But to
Paris it was practically but a step. . . . The Abbé Duloup spoke of
going to Paris as her uncle spoke of going to Périgueux. Yet her heart
thudded violently during the interminable half hour. And there was the
grim possibility of the appearance of a pursuing Aunt Clothilde. She
kept a fearful eye upon the doorway of the _salle d’attente_.
At last the train rushed in, and there was clangour of luggage trucks
and clamour of raucous voices announcing the train for Paris; and a flow
of waiting people, among whom was her neighbour with her varied
impedimenta, swept across the lines and scaled the heights of the
carriages. By luck, in front of Félise loomed a compartment showing
second class on the door panel and “_Dames seules_” on the window. She
clambered in and sank into a seat. Who her lonely lady fellow-travellers
were she could not afterwards remember; for she kept her eyes closed,
absorbed in the adventure that still lay before her. Yet it was
comforting to feel that as long as the train went on she was safe in
this feminine sanctuary, free from depredations of marauding males.