In the meanwhile a heart-broken man sat in a sordid room toiling dully
at the task of translating French commercial papers into English, by
which means he added a little to his precarious income, while on the
other side of the partition his wife slept drunkenly. That had been his
domestic life, good God! he reflected, for more years than he cared to
number. But up to then Félise had been kept in ignorance. Now the veil
had been lifted. She had, indeed, retained the mother of her dreams, but
at what a cost to him! Would it not have been better to tell her the
truth? He stared at the type-written words until they were hidden by a
mist of tears. He had lost all that made life sweet for him—the love of
Félise.
He bowed his head in his hands. Judgment had at last descended on him
for the sins of his youth; for he had erred grievously. All the misery
he had endured since then had been but a preparation for the blow that
had now fallen. It would be easy to go to her to-morrow and say: “I
deceived you last night. The woman you saw was your mother.” But he knew
he would never be able to say it. He must pay the great penalty.
He paid it the next day when he called humbly to see her. She received
him dutifully and gave him her cheek to kiss, but he felt her shrink
from him and read the anguished condemnation in her eyes. He saw, too,
for he was quick at such things, how her glance took in, for the first
time in her life, his worn black clothes, his frayed linen, his genteel
shabbiness, a grotesque contrast to the air of wealth in which she found
herself. And he knew that she had no mean thoughts but was pierced to
the heart by the discovery; for she turned her head aside and bit her
lip, so that he should not guess.
“I should like to tell you what I have done,” said he, after some
desultory and embarrassed talk about Lucilla. “I have telegraphed to
Chartres and Brantôme to say that you are safe and sound, and I have
written to your Uncle Gaspard about Lucien Viriot. You will never hear
of the matter again, unless your Aunt Clothilde goes to Brantôme, which
I very much doubt.”
“Thank you, father,” said Félise, and the commonplace words sounded cold
in her ears. She was delivered, she knew, from the nightmare of the past
few weeks; but she found little joy in her freedom. Then she asked:
“Have you told Uncle Gaspard why I ran away from Aunt Clothilde?”
“Enough, dear, for him to understand. He will ask you no questions, so
you needn’t tell him anything.”
“Won’t that be ungrateful? I have treated him ungratefully enough
already.”
Fortinbras stretched out his hand to lay it caressingly on her head, as
he had done all her life, but, remembering, withdrew it, with a sigh.