As the child was crying bitterly and the father was self-reproachful—he
had taken the _mioche_ to see her aunt, and coming back had met some
friends who had enticed him into the Café of the Mère Diridieu, where
they had given him some poisoned, leg-dislocating alcohol—Martin took
the child in his arms, and trudged back to the rock-dwellings where the
drunkard lived. On the way Boucabeille, relieved of paternal
responsibility, the tired child now snuggling sleepily and comfortably
against Martin’s neck, grew confidential and confessed, with sly
enjoyment, that he had already well watered his throttle before he
started. The man, he declared, with the luminousness of an apostle, who
did not get drunk occasionally was an imbecile denying himself the
pleasures of the Other Life. Martin recognised in Boucabeille a
transcendentalist, no matter how muddle-headed. The sober clod did not
know adventures. He did not know happiness. The path of the drunkard,
Boucabeille explained, was strewn with joy.
The anxious wife who met them at the door called Martin a saint from
heaven and her husband a stream of unmentionable things. He staggered
under the outburst and laid his hand again on Martin’s shoulder.
“Monsieur Martin, I have committed a fault. I take you to witness”—his
wife paused in her invective to hear the penitent—“if I was more drunk
I wouldn’t pay attention to anything she says. I have committed a fault.
I haven’t got drunk enough.”
“_Sale cochon!_” cried the lady, and Martin left them, meditating on the
philosophy of drunkenness. _Quo me rapis Bacche, plenum tui?_ To what
godlike adventure? But the magic word was _plenum_—right full to the
lips. No half-and-half measures for Bacchus. Apparently Boucabeille had
failed in his adventure and had missed happiness by a gill. Browning’s
lines about the little more and the little less came into his head, and
he laughed. Both the poet and the muddle-headed quarryman were right.
Adventures not brought through to the end must be dismal fiasco. . . .
His mind wandered a little. His shoulder was ever such a trifle stiff
from carrying the child; but he missed the warmth of her grateful little
body, and the trusting clasp of her tiny arms. It had been an
insignificant adventure, an adventure, so to speak, in miniature; but it
had been complete, rounded off, perfect. The proof lay in the glow of
satisfaction at the thing accomplished. Materially, there was nothing to
complain about. But from a philosophic standpoint the satisfaction was
not absolute. For the absolute is finality, and there is no finality in
mundane things. From a thing so finite as human joy eternal law decreed
the evolution of the germs of fresh desires. There had been a strange
sweetness in the clasp of those tiny arms. How much sweeter to a man
would be the clasp, if the arms were his own flesh and blood? Martin was
shocked by the suspicion that things were not going right with him as a
human being.