“Yes, my child,” said Fortinbras.
“You also were an ideal.”
He smiled. “You loved me tenderly, but I was not in your calendar of
saints, my dear.”
She mastered herself, swallowing a sob, but the tears rolled down her
cheeks.
“You are now,” she said.
He laughed uncertainly. “A poor old sinner of a saint,” he said, and
gathered her to him.
And later, in the salon, before the fire, for the autumn was damp and
cold, he told her the cheerless story of his life, concealing nothing,
putting the facts before her so that she could judge. She sat on the
rug, her arm about his knee. She felt very tired, as though some part of
her had bled to death. But a new wonder filled her heart. In a way she
had been prepared for the discovery. In her talks with her uncle and
with Martin she had been keen to mark a strange disingenuousness. She
had accused them of conspiracy. They were concealing something; what,
she knew not; but a cloud had rested on her mother’s memory. If, on that
disastrous evening, the frowsy woman of the Rue Maugrabine had revealed
herself as her mother, her soul would have received a shock from which
recovery might have been difficult. Now the shock had not only been
mitigated by months of torturing doubt, but was compensated by the
thrill of her father’s sacrifice.
When he had ended, she turned and wept and knelt before him, crying for
forgiveness, calling him all manner of foolish names.
He said, stroking her dark hair: “I am only a poor old bankrupt
_Marchand de Bonheur_!”
“You will be _Marchand de Bonheur_ to the end,” she said, and with total
want of logical relevance she added: “See what happiness you have
brought me to-night.”
“At any rate, my dear,” said he, “we have found each other at last.”
She went to bed and lay awake till dawn looking at a new world of wrong
doing, suffering and heroism. Who was she, humble little girl, living
her sequestered life, to judge men by the superficialities of their
known actions? She had judged her father almost to the catastrophe of
love. She had judged Martin bitterly. What did she know of the riot in
his soul? Now he was offering his life for a splendid ideal. She felt
humble beside her conception of him. And her Uncle Gaspard, great,
tender, adored, was lying far, far away in the north, with a bullet
through his body. She prayed her valiant little soul out for the two of
them. And the next morning she arose and went to her work brave and
clear-eyed, with a new hope in God based upon a new faith in man.
A day or two later she received a wild letter from Corinna Hastings.
Corinna’s letters were as frequent as blackberries in March. Félise
knitted her brows over it for a long time. Then she took it to her
father.
“The sense,” she said, “must lie in the scrabble I can’t make out.”
Fortinbras put on his spectacles and when, not without difficulty, he
had deciphered it, he took off the spectacles and smiled the benevolent
smile of the _Marchand de Bonheur_.