A Maid and a Million Men: the candid confessions of Leona Canwick, censored indiscreetly by James G. Dunton
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“I don’t want to,” I told him. “I can’t do justice to the subject and
Vyvy is entitled to hear from you herself.... I’ll tell you: you put
your name and rank and everything at the top of the first page, don’t
you?”
“Surely.”
“Well, you write to Auntie and inclose a letter to Vyvy. I’ll write to
Auntie and tell her to cut the top from the first page of your letter,
then forward the rest to Vyvy. My mail isn’t inspected half the time and
no one would think anything anyway.”
“Nope,” he insisted. “Vyvy’d wonder why the letter didn’t come direct.”
“Well—then—you can write to me without having your letters censored.
Send your letters to Vyvy via me. What’s wrong with that?”
“Nothing, I guess. I’ll do it.”
So now that was off my hands and my head felt a little easier on all
scores, for I told Leon all about the Captain and Jay-Jay and the Madame
and everything and he was prepared for whatever might happen now. I
almost told him to look up the Madame—but I just couldn’t do it: it
didn’t seem decent to fix up a loving party for your own brother.... He
would write to me from Paris, and we’d meet again as soon as possible.
Ben and I didn’t get back to our barracks till ten and it was twelve
before we turned in. Esky was sick. We didn’t know what was the matter
with him, so didn’t know what to do for him. Probably be all right by
morning, but I hated to see him sick. He looked and acted too pitiful: I
couldn’t sleep all night if he was going to be prowling around and
sticking his nose into my ear every few minutes. But that was just what
he did when he felt funny.
Ben was asleep. Esky stuck his nose into his ear and Ben must have been
dreaming, for he mumbled something about “you know my weak spot, honey.”
Maybe he thought it was that Captain of W.A.A.C.’s.
—3—
Monday was a terrible day. The General worked me like a nigger. Esky was
sick and Ben said he’d been poisoned by that meat Pierre gave him
yesterday. When I told the General about it, he told Ben to take the pup
and cart him out to a veterinary in the car. Pretty special for a dog to
ride to a veterinary in a General’s car. Ben came back to report that
the vet didn’t know whether he could pull him through or not, said he
was probably poisoned, that he might go blind.... I felt too terrible to
think about it. We got some medicine and Ben and I took turns all night
getting up to give it to him. The poor pup! He just lay around and
looked miserable and threw up everything he ate and a lot of blood, too.
—4—
The next day it looked as if Esky couldn’t possibly get well again. He
didn’t walk around at all—just lay there on his side and breathed so
awfully hard that it made me want to cry just to watch him. When I
patted his head he opened his eyes lazily and gave his tail a couple of
feeble wags.