All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
All for Love; or, Her Heart's Sacrifice
John Stuart Mill · en
“Nearly sixteen, please; I’ve told Dante that, and we may as well stick
to it. It’s bad enough to have to confess that I’m old enough to have a
daughter nearly sixteen, without adding two years to it, for the sake
of truth. What in the world has made you grow like this? Of course,
I know that your father was tall, but if I had thought that you were
as big and as old-looking as you are, I don’t believe I should had
have courage enough to send to that Skimmers woman for you--although I
don’t know; it’s worth something to have a dig at your aunt! What are
you staring at me like this for? For pity’s sake, sit down. Why didn’t
you get a new dress? I sent money for you to do so. But perhaps the
Skimmers woman didn’t give it to you? Did she? Why don’t you answer?
I hate people who stare and say nothing. Sit down and talk to me, for
goodness’ sake. I haven’t much time to waste with you, anyway; I’ve got
to be off to the theater in a few minutes. I’m opening the new opera
house to-night, you know--or, perhaps, you don’t know! But the town is
well billed, and if you have any eyes at all you must have seen my name
on the boardings.”
Dora drew back with a sudden influx of memory and with a shuddering
sense of repulsion. “Oh, you don’t mean--you can’t mean that you--you
are that woman? And that you are my mother as well?”
“Why can’t I mean it? Look here! that Skimmers woman hasn’t raised you
like some Puritanical old granny, has she? I’m going to put you on the
stage, you know, and have a ‘go’ at your spiteful aunt, in that way.
She always treated her brother and me very shabbily. I don’t suppose
you ever heard much about your father? Well, he was the unfortunate
stepbrother to the richest woman in this part of the country: Mrs.
Charles Bonair. He’s dead, by the way, so you won’t be worried by him.
Although I wrote her, she wouldn’t give a farthing to me. Stingy old
cat! I told her about you--oh, make no mistake about that--and I’ll
make her pay dear for what she has tried to do against me in this town.
She would not let sleeping dogs lie, and now that she has waked ’em up,
she’ll have to pay the price for it, if I know myself.”
Something that was like the pressure of a strong hand gripped Dora’s
throat. She did not speak; she could not--all strength, mental as
well as physical, seemed somehow to have died within her, and, in a
sort of collapse, she sank down on the edge of a convenient seat, and
stared dumbly at the shining figure before her; a sense of shuddering
repulsion biting into her soul and mirroring itself, in spite of her,
in her fixed eyes. For, somehow, this woman, her newly found mother,
reminded her of a snake curled up in rose leaves.