He laid the letter on the table and eyed it sideways as he lit his
pipe. Then he went to the telephone and called up Norma. He said he was
sorry, but that he wouldn't be able to come that evening for bridge.
Norma, as she herself had observed, did not suffer from inhibitions.
Her emotions found easy expression, and her emotion on this occasion
was disappointment mingled with anger. She expressed it freely over
the telephone. Lisburn hung up the receiver sharply. Self-expression
was all very well, he thought; but there was such a thing as having no
self-control. It was necessary for him to have a calm and receptive
mind in order to be of any assistance to this child who was coming
to consult him. He must make a mental picture of her personality and
recall her gestures, her vocabulary.
Soon after eight he heard her step on the piazza and went to the door
himself. She entered with that timid, conscious, apologetic manner
which had become so familiar to him in his patients. It seemed as if
she would have liked to make fun of herself for coming if only she had
been less frightened at finding herself there. The hand she gave him
shook. He drew forward a deep comfortable chair for her.
"Now tell me everything you can think of," he said; "your own way; I
won't interrupt."
She drew an uncertain breath.
"Well, I didn't think anything about it--you know how casually I spoke
the other day--but now I find it is beginning to affect my conduct.
I find I cannot bring myself to get into an automobile. I have never
driven a car myself, but I have always enjoyed driving with other
people; but now-- This dream of mine is about a car."
She described the dream at great length, though it was strangely
lacking in incident. It was merely that she was driving a small car of
her own--a very pretty white car with a good deal of blue about it. She
was driving along a wide street, and suddenly the car began to skid,
slowly at first and then faster and faster; and though her agony became
extreme and she turned the steering wheel more and more, she could do
nothing--the car made straight for the bushes, where some terrific but
unseen and unknown object was lurking.
He made her go over the details of it two or three times. The shade
of blue was about the same shade as the dress she was wearing, but he
elicited very little more. She could not, she said, get any clew as to
what was hidden in the bushes, except that it was something she was
horribly afraid of.
"And yet," he said, "you go toward it?"
"Yes; but entirely against my will, Mr. Lisburn."
"You're sure you go against your will?"
Her voice was almost hysterical as she protested, "Yes--yes, indeed!"
"And yet you go?"
"No, Mr. Lisburn, the car goes."
"Don't you think you and the car are the same?"