Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Backwater : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 2
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“My dear Jenny,” said Miss Deborah promptly, “Miriam is not a child. She
must do as she thinks best.”
“But don’t ye see my point, my dear Deborah? I don’t say she’s a child.
She’s a madcap. That’s it.” She paused. “Of course I daresay she’ll fall
on her feet. Ye’re a most extraordinary gel. I don’t know. Of course ye
can come _back_--or stay here in yer holidays. Ye know _that_, my dear,”
she concluded, suddenly softening her sharp little voice.
“I don’t _want_ to go,” cried Miriam with tear-filled eyes. They were
one person in the grip of a decision. Miss Haddie sat up and moved her
elbows about. All four pairs of eyes held tears.
“My dear--I wish we could give ye more, Miriam,” murmured Miss Jenny;
“we don’t want to lose ye, ye’ve pulled the lower school together in a
remarkable way”; Miss Deborah was drawing little breaths of protest at
this descent into gross detail; “the children are interested. We hear
that from the parents. We shall be able to give ye excellent
testimonials.”
“Oh, I don’t care about that,” responded Miriam desperately.
‘Fancy--Great Scott--parents--behind all my sore throats--I’ve never
heard about that. It’s all coming out now,’ she thought.
“Well--my dear--now----” began Miss Jenny hesitatingly. Feeling herself
slipping, Miriam clung harshly to her determination and drew herself up
to offer the set of the pretty blouse Gerald and Harriett had bought her
in Brighton as a seal on her irrevocable decision to break with Banbury
Park. It was a delicate sheeny green silk, with soft tuckers.
“What steps have ye taken?” asked Miss Jenny in a quizzical
business-like tone.
“It’s very kind of you,” said Miriam formally, and went on to hint
vaguely and convincingly at the existence of some place in a family in
the country that would be sure to fall to her lot through the many
friends to whom Eve had written on her behalf, turning away from the
feast towards the freedom of the untenanted part of the room. The
sitting had to be brought to an end.... In a moment she would be utterly
routed.... Her lame statements were the end of the struggle. She knew
she was demonstrating in her feeble broken tones a sort of blind
strength they knew nothing of and that they would leave it at that,
whatever they thought, if only there were no more talk.
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