People have always associated the country with love, and they have done
well; nothing affords so fine a frame for the woman whom one loves as
the blue sky, the odours, the flowers, the breeze, the shining solitude
of fields, or woods. However much one loves a woman, whatever
confidence one may have in her, whatever certainty her past may offer
us as to her future, one is always more or less jealous. If you have
been in love, you must have felt the need of isolating from this world
the being in whom you would live wholly. It seems as if, however
indifferent she may be to her surroundings, the woman whom one loves
loses something of her perfume and of her unity at the contact of men
and things. As for me, I experienced that more than most. Mine was not
an ordinary love; I was as much in love as an ordinary creature could
be, but with Marguerite Gautier; that is to say, that at Paris, at
every step, I might elbow the man who had already been her lover or who
was about to, while in the country, surrounded by people whom we had
never seen and who had no concern with us, alone with nature in the
spring-time of the year, that annual pardon, and shut off from the
noise of the city, I could hide my love, and love without shame or
fear.
The courtesan disappeared little by little. I had by me a young and
beautiful woman, whom I loved, and who loved me, and who was called
Marguerite; the past had no more reality and the future no more clouds.
The sun shone upon my mistress as it might have shone upon the purest
bride. We walked together in those charming spots which seemed to have
been made on purpose to recall the verses of Lamartine or to sing the
melodies of Scudo. Marguerite was dressed in white, she leaned on my
arm, saying over to me again under the starry sky the words she had
said to me the day before, and far off the world went on its way,
without darkening with its shadow the radiant picture of our youth and
love.
That was the dream that the hot sun brought to me that day through the
leaves of the trees, as, lying on the grass of the island on which we
had landed, I let my thought wander, free from the human links that had
bound it, gathering to itself every hope that came in its way.
Add to this that from the place where I was I could see on the shore a
charming little house of two stories, with a semicircular railing;
through the railing, in front of the house, a green lawn, smooth as
velvet, and behind the house a little wood full of mysterious retreats,
where the moss must efface each morning the pathway that had been made
the day before. Climbing flowers clung about the doorway of this
uninhabited house, mounting as high as the first story.