Catherine's coquetries : $b A tale of French country life
John Stuart Mill · en
“Well, listen. Five years ago at the Rouvray fair, while passing the
ox-stalls, I received a terrible blow from the horn of a cow, on the
face. I was badly hurt and in a sorry plight, when Monsieur Morris the
doctor, passing by told me I must have the wound dressed. I made light
of it, but the doctor seized my arm and drew me into a little cottage,
the nearest one from the spot where we were standing. It was terribly
hot weather. You remember--in ’81.”
“Yes, yes, I remember.”
“As I said before, he took me by the arm and led me in. A widow and
her daughter occupied the cottage. The latter gave me a drink of cold
water, and from that moment I was not conscious what the doctor was
doing to my face. I was too much in love with the pretty young woman to
mind what he did. I watched her come and go, and my heart was hers from
that moment. You can guess who it was. Yes, it was Jeanne, God bless
her!”
Sidonie gave a little gasp. Jean did not realize that he was taking
long strides and that the little lame girl was desperately trying to
keep up with him. L’Ours continued, not noticing her discomfort:
“I said to myself, ‘God never made such a beautiful creature to be
mated with a man like me.’ When the doctor had finished I thanked
everybody--first Monsieur Morris, then the widow, and finally Jeanne.
She smiled at me, but I was so stupid I knew not what I said. But she
answered sweetly, and then I went away.”
“Jean, I cannot walk so fast,” interrupted Sidonie.
“Forgive me, little one. I forget.”
He stopped a moment for Sidonie to rest, and then they started on.
“I never remembered having seen such eyes as hers before, and such a
pretty mouth, dainty figure, and glossy hair. Well, when I went out I
forgot all about the fair and returned to the woods.”
Thoroughly exhausted, Sidonie said: “L’Ours, leave me here. I can go no
farther.”
“Why, little one?”
“You must go on to St. Benoit to save Bruno, and I can only hinder you.
I cannot walk.”
“Lean against my arm, child, and you can go better. We are just half
way now. Keep up your courage, child, I cannot leave you here.”
They again started.
“Once alone, I dreamed of her at will. I was mad with love.”
“Poor Jean! Yes, it is terrible.”
“You know--yes. I shall do for you what he did for me.”
“What?”
“Was I dreaming or waking, her face haunted me. I lost strength. I
could not eat or sleep, and for a year I suffered in silence. Sometimes
in the winter, in spite of cold and snow, I would set out for Rouvray.
I would watch her window, and when the light was extinguished I would
walk back four miles, rewarded by having seen her shadow on the
curtain. One night I met Fadard.”
“Jean, good Jean, I cannot go any farther. My feet are sinking from
under me. Leave me.”
“What! Leave you here? Oh, no! Would you die in the snow?”
“It would not matter.”
“Don’t be foolish. I dreamed of dying once, too, but Jeanne saved me.”