Coelebs: The Love Story of a Bachelor — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Coelebs: The Love Story of a Bachelor
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"What jolly stables!" Peggy cried, breathing herself more freely since
the imminent discovery of Diogenes was a danger past. They had met no
one in the road, had been seen by no one from the house. "You will be
quite happy here, Diogenes. You must be very good, and give no trouble,
mind."
Diogenes, who was engaged on an inspection of his temporary quarters,
disregarded these injunctions; he was snuffling round for rats. Peggy
looked at Mr Musgrave. By a strange coincidence Mr Musgrave was
looking at Peggy, looking with a close and curious scrutiny.
"You _are_ kind," she said. "I can never thank you."
Her gratitude had the effect of inclining Mr Musgrave towards a greater
kindliness; but, since he had undertaken to perform the sole service
that presented itself as practicable, he could bethink him of nothing
kinder, and so modestly deprecated her thanks.
"If Diogenes had been shot," she said, and shivered, "it would have made
me very unhappy. I'm unhappy enough as it is. I hate the thought of
losing him. I can't bear to think of never seeing him in the future."
To hide the sudden rush of tears which she realised would be as
embarrassing for John Musgrave to witness as for her to shed before him,
she dropped on her knees in the straw and drew Diogenes to her and put
her arms about his neck.
"Oh, Diogenes, my poor dear?" she sobbed. "Why ever did you do it?
I've got to let you go, Diogenes. I shan't see you any more, ever.
We'll never go for walks together again. If I'd only been with him,"
she said, lifting to John Musgrave her tear-dimmed eyes, "it wouldn't
have happened."
John Musgrave, with the scene of his wrecked china, and Diogenes
standing triumphant amid the wreckage, with Peggy, dismayed and
helpless, beside him, had a passing doubt whether her presence would
have availed in preventing the tragedy. But, with those upturned,
tear-filled eyes appealing for his sympathy, to remind her that her
authority was sometimes in default was a brutality of which he was
incapable.
"I am exceedingly sorry," he said gently, "for your distress. I wish I
could help you."
"But you are helping me," she cried. "You have taken such a load off my
mind. I daresay in time I'll get used to being without him. But he was
such a--chum."
As she knelt almost at his feet, with her arms about the ugly brute from
which she was so loth to separate, she presented a picture at once so
appealing and pathetic that Mr Musgrave found himself struggling with
all manner of absurd impulses in his very earnest and not unnatural
desire to see her grief change to gladness, and the tears melt away in
smiles. He had the same feeling of uncomfortable distress in witnessing
her trouble as he experienced over the lesser but more assertive
troubles of John Sommers. Her tears hurt him.