“No it ain’t, it’s the girl herself. I don’t like the way she has of
looking at me and through me.”
“Why, that’s the way with that kind. It’s what the lords like.”
“I don’t like it, then, and I tell you _she’s got to be took down!_”
This was the last I heard. Yet one thing was evident to me from their
conversation. My father had some wild plan of effecting an entrance
into society through me. He thought that after he was once recognized
he might get sufficient influence to gain a title and found a family. I
also might marry a lord. He thus dreamed of being Lord Brandon, and one
of the great nobles of the land.
Amidst my sadness I almost smiled at this vain dream; but yet John’s
words affected me strongly--“You’ve played such good little games
in your life.” Well I knew with whom they were played. One was with
Despard, the other with Brandon.
This then was the reason why he had sent for me from China. The
knowledge of his purpose made my life neither brighter nor darker. I
still lived on as before.
During these months Mrs. Compton’s tender devotion to me never ceased. I
respected her, and forbore to excite that painful fear to which she was
subject. Once or twice I forgot myself and began speaking to her about
her strange position here. She stopped me with her look of alarm.
“Are you not afraid to be kind to me?” I asked.
She looked at me piteously.
“You are the only one that is kind to me,” I continued. “How have you
the courage?”
“I can not help it,” she murmured, “you are so dear to me.”
She sighed and was silent. The mystery about her remained unchanged;
her gentle nature, her tender love, and her ever-present fear. What was
there in her past that so influenced her life? Had she too been mixed up
with the crime on the _Vishnu_? She! impossible. Yet surely something as
dark as that must have been required to throw so black a cloud over
her life. Yet what--what could that have been? In spite of myself I
associate her secret with the tragedy of Despard. She was in his family
long. His wife died. She must have been with her at the time.
The possibilities that have suggested themselves to my mind will one
day drive me mad. Alas, how my heart yearns over that lonely man in the
drifting ship! And yet, merciful God! who am I that I should sympathize
with him? My name is infamy, my blood is pollution.
I spoke to her once in a general way about the past. Had she ever been
out of England? I asked.
“Yes,” she answered, dreamily.
“Where?”
She looked at me and said not a word.
At another time I spoke of China, and hinted that perhaps she too knew
something about the East. The moment that I said this I repented. The
poor creature was shaken from head to foot with a sudden convulsion of
fear. This convulsion was so terrible that it seemed to me as though
another would be death. I tried to soothe her, but she looked fearfully
at me for a long time after.