On his return from one of these he went to the Grange. Mrs. Thornton was
sitting in the drawing-room, looking pensively out of the window, when
she saw his well-known figure advancing up the avenue. His face was sad,
and pervaded by a melancholy expression, which was noticeable now as he
walked along.
But when he came into the room that melancholy face suddenly lighted up
with the most radiant joy. Mrs. Thornton advanced to meet him, and he
took her hand in both of his.
“I ought to say, welcome back again,” said she, with forced liveliness,
“but you may have been in Holby a week for all I know. When did you come
back? Confess now that you have been secluding yourself in your study
instead of paying your respects in the proper quarter.”
Despard smiled. “I arrived home at eleven this morning. It is now three
P.M. by my watch. Shall I say how impatiently I have waited till three
o’clock should come?
“Oh no! don’t say any thing of the sort. I can imagine all that you
would say. But tell me where you have been on this last visit?”
“Wandering like an evil spirit, seeking rest and finding none.”
“Have you been to London again?”
“Where have I not been?”
By this time they had seated themselves.
“My last journey,” said Despard, “like my former ones, was, of course,
about the Brandon affair. You know that I have had long conversations
with Mr. Thornton about it, and he insists that nothing whatever can
be done. But you know, also, that I could not sit down idly and
calmly under this conviction. I have felt most keenly the presence
of intolerable wrong. Every day I have felt as if I had shared in the
infamy of those who neglected that dying man. That was the reason why I
wrote to Australia to see if the Brandon who was drowned was really the
one I supposed. I heard, you know, that he was the same man, and there
is no doubt about that. Then you know, as I told you, that I went around
among different lawyers to see if any thing could be done. Nearly all
asserted that no redress was possible. That is what Mr. Thornton said.
There was one who said that if I were rich enough I might begin a
prosecution, but as I am not rich that did me no good. That man would
have been glad, no doubt, to have undertaken such a task.”
“What is there in law that so hardens the heart?” said Mrs. Thornton,
after a pause. “Why should it kill all sentiment, and destroy so utterly
all the more spiritual qualities?”
“I don’t think that the law does this necessarily. It depends after all
on the man himself. If I were a lawyer, I should still love music above
all things.”
“But did you ever know a lawyer who loved music?”
“I have not known enough of them to answer that. But in England music is
not loved so devotedly as in other countries. Is it inconceivable that
an Italian lawyer should love music?”
“I don’t know. Law is abhorrent to me. It seems to be a profession that
kills the finer sentiments.”