“Perhaps not; but I’ll tell you what would be a help. Be a Sister of
Charity. I’ll be a Paulist. I’ll devote myself to the sick. Then you and
I can go together; and when you are tired I can assist you. I think that
idea is much better than yours.”
“Oh, very much, indeed!” said Mrs. Thornton, with a strange, sad look.
“I remember a boy and girl who once used to go hand in hand over yonder
shore, and--” He stopped suddenly, and then hastily added, “and now it
would be very sad, and therefore very absurd, in one of them to bring up
old memories.”
Mrs. Thornton suddenly rose, and, walking to the window, looked out. “I
wonder if it will rain to-day!” she said, in a sweet voice, full of a
tremulous melancholy.
“There are very dark clouds about,” returned Despard, mournfully.
“I hope there will not be a storm,” she rejoined, with the same sadness.
Her hands were held tightly together. “Some things will perish if a
storm comes.”
“Let us pray that there may be calm and peace,” said Despard.
She turned and looked at him for a moment. Strange that these two should
pass so quickly from gayety to gloom! Their eyes met, and each read in
the face of the other sadness beyond words.
CHAPTER XIV.
TWO LETTERS.
Despard did not go back to the Grange for some days. About a week had
passed since the scenes narrated in the preceding chapter when one
morning, having finished his breakfast, he went into his library and sat
down at the table to write. A litter of papers lay all around. The walls
were covered with shelves, filled with books. The table was piled high
with ponderous tomes. Manuscripts were strewn around, and books were
scattered on the floor. Yet, amidst all this disorder, some order was
apparent, for many of these books lay open in certain places, and others
were arranged so as to be within reach.
Several sheets of paper, covered with writing, lay before him, headed,
“The Byzantine Poets.” The books were all in Greek. It was the library
of a hard-working student.
Very different was the Despard of the library from the Despard who had
visited the Grange. A stern and thoughtful expression was read in his
face, and his eyes had an abstraction which would have done credit to
Mr. Thornton himself.
Taking his seat at the table, he remained for a while leaning his head
on his hand in deep thought. Then he took up a pen and drew a piece of
paper before him to try it. He began to draw upon it the same figure
which he had marked with his cane on Mrs. Thornton’s carpet. He traced
this figure over and over, until at last the whole sheet was covered.
Suddenly he flung down the pen, and, taking up the paper, leaned back
in his chair with a melancholy face. “What a poor, weak thing I am!”
he muttered at last, and let the paper fall to the floor. He leaned
his head on his hand, then resumed his pen and began to make some idle
marks. At length he began to draw.