Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Countess Vera; or, The Oath of Vengeance
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"Forgive me for troubling you, darling," he says, tenderly. "I do not
wish to force your confidence, Vera. Only believe me, my own one, every
sorrow that rends your heart causes me unhappiness, too."
She lies still against that loyal heart one moment--oh, happy haven
of rest, never to be hers! then struggles from him with one last,
lingering kiss, and goes to her room and her sleepless couch to brood
alone in that dark, dark hour that comes before the dawn, over the
terrible discovery she has made.
For Colonel Lockhart the hours pass sleeplessly, too. The shadow of
Vera's unknown sorrow lies heavily upon his heart.
He rises early, and long before the late breakfast hour Lady Vera's
maid brings him a sealed note. He tears it hastily open, and her
betrothal ring falls sparkling into his hand.
"DEAR PHILIP," she writes, "I return your ring. A terrible barrier
has risen between us that all our love can never bridge over. So we
must part. And, oh! believe me, dearest, it breaks my heart to write
it. One thing I would ask you, Philip--will you go away from here and
save me the sorrow of meeting you again? I can bear my misery and my
impending shame far better if I cannot see you whom I have so fondly
loved, and must so fatefully resign.
"YOUR WRETCHED VERA."
"Has my darling grown mad?" the handsome soldier asks himself, staring
almost stupidly at the note and the ring in his hand. "What shame can
touch her, my beautiful, pure-hearted one? She is going to be ill,
perhaps, and this is but the vagary of a mind diseased."
So he writes back impulsively:
"VERA, let me see you for even ten minutes. Surely, my darling, you
do not mean what you say. What shame can touch you, my innocent love?
And why should you wish to send me away? Is it not my right and duty
and desire to stand by your side through all the trials of life?
"'Oh! what was love made for if 'tis not the same,
Through joy and through torment, through glory and shame?'
"Do not ask me to leave you, darling. If indeed sorrow and trouble
are near you, my place is by your side. I will wait for you half an
hour in the library. Do not fail me, dear. I want to put your ring
back upon your finger.
"YOUR OWN PHILIP."
Lady Vera weeps bitterly over her lover's note.
"Ah, he does not know, he does not dream of the fatal truth," she
moans, wildly. "And what can I say to him? I cannot, I will not tell
him. I could not do it. I should die of the shame. He will know too
soon as it is. And yet I must go to him. He will not be denied. Oh!
what shall I say to him, my poor boy?"
Weeping and lingering, dreading to go, the half-hour is almost up
before she drags herself to the library where Philip is pacing up and
down the floor in a fever of doubt and suspense.
"Vera, my darling," he cries. "Oh, how could you treat me so cruelly?"