“You are right. I have known a group of poor Russian students translate
a whole book in a single night. But you will not find cynical
vulgarisation of literature anywhere but in England and America. It is
indeed remarkable to the foreigner the way in this country the
profession of letters has become a speculation. Never before I came here
did I meet this idea of writing for a living, in this naïve widespread
form. There is something very bad in it.” Miriam surveyed the green
vista, thinking guiltily of her envy and admiration of the many young
men she had met at the Wilsons’ who were mysteriously “writing” or
“going to write,” of her surprise and disappointment in meeting here and
there things they had written ...... don’t, Miss Henderson .... _don’t_
take up .... a journalistic _career_ on the strength of being able to
write; as badly as Jenkins. Editors--poor dears--are _beleaguered_, by
aspiring relatives. She thought out now, untrammelled by the distraction
of listening to the way he formed his sentences, the meaning of these
last words ..... it spread a chill over the wide stretch of sunlit
grass; in the very moments that were passing, the writing world was
going actively on, the clever people who had ideas and style and those
others, determined, besieging, gradually making themselves into writers,
indistinguishable by most readers, from the others, sharing, even during
their dreadful beginnings, in the social distinctions and privileges of
“writers,” and all of them, the clever ones and the others, quite
untroubled by any sense of guilt, and making, when they were all
together, a social atmosphere that was, in spite of its scepticism, and
its scorn of everyday life, easier to breathe than any other. But being
burdened with a hesitating sense of guilt, unable to be really
interested in the things clever people wrote about, being beguiled by
gross sentimentality because of its foreign dress and the fascination of
transforming it, meant belonging outside the world of clever writers,
tried in their balance and found wanting; and cut off from the world of
innocent unconscious determined aspirants by a mysterious fear.