“You needn’t” she said rising as he rose, and going buoyantly to move
about in the neighbourhood of the scattered results of his last
operation, the symbols of her narrowly rescued continuity. She was not
yet free to touch them. He was still, wandering about the other part of
the room, lingering with thoughtful bent head in the mazes of her
outrageous halting statements. But a good deal of his resentment had
gone. It was something outside herself, something in the world at large,
that had forced him to act against his “better judgment.” He was still
angry and feeling a little shorn, faced, in the very presence of the
offender, with the necessity of disposing of the fact that he had been
driven into inconsistency.
Miriam drew a deep sigh, clearing her personal air of the burden of
conflict. Was it an affront? It had sounded to her like a song. His
thoughts must be saying, well, there you are, it’s all very well to
throw it all off like that. His pose stiffened into a suggested
animation with regard to work delayed. If only now there could be an
opportunity for one of his humorous remarks so that she could laugh
herself back into their indestructible impersonal relationship. It was,
she thought, prophetically watching his gloriously inevitable recovery,
partly his unconscious resentment of the blow she had struck at their
good understanding that had made him so repeatedly declare that if they
started again it must be on a new footing; that all possibility of
spontaneity between them had been destroyed.
How could it be, with the events of daily life perpetually building it
afresh?
CHAPTER IX