In the dimly lit little interior, moving along through the backward
flowing mist-screened street lights, she dropped away from the circling
worlds of sound, and sat thoughtless gazing inward along the bright
kaleidoscopic vistas that came unfailing and unchanged whenever she was
moving, alone and still, against the moving tide of London. When the bus
pulled up for a moment in a block, she searched the gloom-girt forms
within her view. The blue light of the omnibus lamp lit up faces
entangled in visible thoughts, unwillingly suffering the temporary
suspension of activity, but in the far corner there was one, alive and
aware, gazing untrammelled at visions like her own, making them true,
the common possession of all who would be still. Why were these people
only to be met in omnibuses and now and again walking sightless along
crowded streets? Perhaps in life they were always surrounded with people
with whom they did not dare to be still. In speech that man would be a
little defensive and cynical. He had a study, where he went to get away
from everything, to work; sometimes he only pretended to work. He did
not guess that anyone outside books, certainly not any _women_ anywhere
.... the bus rumbled on again; by the time it reached Gower Street she
had passed through thoughtless ages. The brown house and her room in it
called to her recreated. Once through the greetings awaiting her, she
would be free upstairs amongst its populous lights and shadows; perhaps
get in unseen and keep her visions untouched through the evening. She
would have an evening’s washing and ironing. Mr. Shatov would not expect
her to-night.