Fire in the Woods: Illustrated — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Fire in the Woods: Illustrated
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Phil walked on for several hours. He was very much fatigued; but
the new excitement that had arisen consequent upon this discovery had
prevented him from giving way to his weariness, and had, in fact,
roused him above it to such an extent that he was unconscious of it.
His expectation of meeting with some signs of humanity clung to
him incessantly as he walked along; and though he was constantly
disappointed, yet he constantly hoped, and persisted in the hope, in
spite of disappointments.
At length, it began to grow darker, and he saw that evening was coming
on. He had been walking incessantly, with but one short rest, ever
since eleven o’clock. Under ordinary circumstances he could not have
maintained such a prolonged effort; and had he not met with this path
he would have sought rest long before this. But his intense desire to
escape, which had been stimulated by this discovery of the path, drew
him on, and nerved him to new efforts. At the end of each hour he still
hoped that the next hour would bring something; and so he kept on even
after the darkness began to deepen. Now, as the darkness increased, the
path grew less and less perceptible, and at last he happened to get out
of it at a place where there was a wide opening in the woods. Leaving
it here, he wandered about until he discovered that he had lost it
altogether. On making this discovery, he made no effort either to
retrace his steps, or to find out the lost path. He was too much worn
out to think of doing either. He simply gave up.
A moss-covered mound was close beside him; and taking a seat here, he
determined to remain for the night, and leave all further effort for the
following day. He was fearfully fatigued, and utterly worn out. When
he gave up he gave up completely. His only thought now was for his
immediate wants, and those wants comprised the two essentials of food
and rest. Rest he could find here, on the mossy mound, under the forest
trees. As to food, thanks to his forethought and self-denial in the
morning, something yet remained. It was that sandwich which he had
reserved for a time of need. The time of need had come, and he drew the
sandwich from his pocket.
He looked at it for a moment solemnly and thoughtfully. It was his last
sandwich--the very last of his little stock of provisions. Should he eat
it all, or should he still preserve a little of it? It seemed unwise
to eat it all. He broke it into two portions, and wrapping one up
carefully, he proceeded to eat the other. But on eating this he found
his appetite unappeased, and his craving for more was irresistible. He
unwrapped what he had reserved and looked at it. Should he eat it? Dare
he eat it? To eat it would be to deprive himself of his last mouthful,
and on the following morning he would have nothing with which to begin
the day.
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