Azalia spent a very restless day and night after Marie had left her to
go upon her secret quest. Her mind was busy, and her lover, Lord Clive,
was nearly all the time in her thoughts.
She knew that she had done him a cruel injustice in promising to become
his wife. She would never have done so had not Laurie Meredith been so
close by that she was tempted to answer "yes" in order to provoke his
wrath and jealousy.
She had failed most ignobly. Laurie had remained cold, unmoved,
indifferent, and there remained to her nothing but the consciousness of
having made a fatal mistake, of having wronged the heart of another man
by accepting him only for a purpose that now recoiled upon her own head.
She could never marry Lord Clive, even if she loved him, for look which
way she would she saw only the impossibility of such a marriage.
If Marie found the marriage-certificate, and it proved her legally
Laurie Meredith's wife, she, the unacknowledged wife of an indifferent
husband, could not wed Lord Clive. On the other hand, if the marriage
had been only a sham, how could she, with that cruel stain upon her,
dare to enter one of the proudest homes of old England? Even if she
could have been dishonest enough to keep the secret, it might be found
out some day--and then?
Azalia sunk her head in her hands and sobbed aloud:
"No, no, I could not bear that! I must break with him even though he
curse me!"
She kept her room for several days, feigning illness, but in reality
too wretched to meet the lover whose anger she feared and dreaded so
much. Her timid heart ached with pain because of the pain she must
inflict on Lord Clive.
But she could not feign illness always. Lady Ivon grew impatient of her
seclusion, declaring that she was only moping, that she would be better
if she would come into their private parlor and see Lord Clive, who was
always hanging about, sending messages and flowers to his invisible
lady-love.
"I will come down presently. Tell him so for me, please," the girl
said, patiently; and when the door had closed upon Lady Ivon's silken
trailing skirts, she fell down upon her knees and begged God to forgive
her for the wrong she had done to Lord Clive, and to help her to bear
his anger when she told him the truth.
He was waiting in the handsome private parlor belonging to Lord Ivon's
elegant suite of rooms at Willard's Hotel, and when she came gliding
in, softly as a spirit in her long gown of rich black velvet, he came
eagerly to meet her, exclaiming:
"My darling, I am glad you are well enough to come out again, for I
have missed you very much."
"Thank you, Lord Clive," she said, in a constrained voice; and evading
the arms outstretched to embrace her, she sunk wearily into a chair.
He followed, and sat down by her side.
"Oh, you have been ill--you are pale and wan indeed, Azalia. I see now
that I did you an injustice, for I half believed, like Lady Ivon, that
it was a fit of _ennui_ or the _dismals_."